Live. Love. Believe.

[roguecxs]

I know I haven't written here in quite a long time. My emotions have been playing with me and most of the time I'm down. I find that when I'm down I spend a lot of time to myself writing. That lady I met in Los Angeles came to visit me here in Florida. She and I had a few days together that were just blissful. Then we had two days before she left that were painful. Things happened between us that was beautiful, but I don't think beauty gets to her. She let what happened come between us, she's made it out to be something dirty. She's very selfish, she won't let me tell her how I feel about things. She only interrupts me and tells me how she feels. Everything with her is either black or white, she knows no gray. She loves to wallow in her sorrow, she's likes the pain she feels. And I can't tell with that, I don't want to deal with that.

My nerves are going haywire, the stress in my life is killing me. I think I have an ulcer, I'll know more tomorrow after some tests are done. My stomach hurts almost all the time, I'm finding it hard to release my emotions, the feelings have been bottling up and exploding in my belly. Live is so much easier when you have love in your life. Maybe one I'll have that again.

Tour starts in May and even though that's 2 months away I'm preparing now. I look forward to getting out of the country and away from all my problems.

I had a poem I wanted to share but I deleted it. The time isn't right to share such feelings.