I just cannot believe it
I have spent the past 5 hours changing flight plans, calling people, and looking through every photo i couild find to find pictures, anything. I looked through yearbooks, and all of the camcorder tapes that I made while at Culver. Like everytime I try to realize that he is gone, I just can't. I still feel like if i go back to South Bend he'll be there. He, Christalee and her dad will pick me up from the train station, and then we'll all go hang out. I am in complete denial. I don't know what's gonna happen when I go down there.