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I was reading one of my friend's livejournals, and I realized something that I missed. Photography. I don't care if anyone thinks that I was good or not, I loved doing it. I remember spending hours in the Dark room developing my pictures and seeing the images surface through the emulsion. Spending literally hours on a picture, trying to get it as perfect as I could. Then looking at it, and always thinking that I could improve. I like looking at other people's photopraghs, and then thinking about what I would have changed about it, like the angle or the depth of field. I love thinking about what the photographer wanted to convey with their piece, and what interesting accidents happened in the picture, like something in the background that's barely noticable. Photography is just something that I have never really lost interest. I just sort of lost my way.
I do have (what i consider) very legitimate concerns about doing photography at Howard:
1.At Howard, they have no Photography Club, and they only let photography students use their dark room. I mean, I would pay for my own paper and film, but I can't just go and buy the chemicals, especially the fix, because it has liquid silver in it, so you need to have it properly disposed of.
2. I am afraid of getting my camera stolen. I was mugged up the street from my dorm, and Howard's security is not the tightest. I did not have my dad spend hundreds of dollars on my camera just to have it taken by some crackhead or loser who doesn't know what that camera means to me. I guess that I could use my manual camera, but looking back at my old photos, i had a big problem with focusing.
Maybe I should just go back to the basics. You know? Like maybe I need to return to my photographic roots. I mean, i would hate to lose that manual camera too, but it only cost like a third of my automatic. Plus, there's nothing like the sound of that shutter on an old manual, or the feeling of advancing the film under your own thumb. It's kinda sensual. Like the subjects in the photos, it makes me feel connected to them on an emotional level just taking their photos, seeing them from angles that they may not see themselves. I love it. Like I love my automatic and my digital cameras, but I love the feeling I get when I use the manual. I think that I'll go and look through my old pictures tonight, a little nostalgia never hurt anybody.
I do have (what i consider) very legitimate concerns about doing photography at Howard:
1.At Howard, they have no Photography Club, and they only let photography students use their dark room. I mean, I would pay for my own paper and film, but I can't just go and buy the chemicals, especially the fix, because it has liquid silver in it, so you need to have it properly disposed of.
2. I am afraid of getting my camera stolen. I was mugged up the street from my dorm, and Howard's security is not the tightest. I did not have my dad spend hundreds of dollars on my camera just to have it taken by some crackhead or loser who doesn't know what that camera means to me. I guess that I could use my manual camera, but looking back at my old photos, i had a big problem with focusing.
Maybe I should just go back to the basics. You know? Like maybe I need to return to my photographic roots. I mean, i would hate to lose that manual camera too, but it only cost like a third of my automatic. Plus, there's nothing like the sound of that shutter on an old manual, or the feeling of advancing the film under your own thumb. It's kinda sensual. Like the subjects in the photos, it makes me feel connected to them on an emotional level just taking their photos, seeing them from angles that they may not see themselves. I love it. Like I love my automatic and my digital cameras, but I love the feeling I get when I use the manual. I think that I'll go and look through my old pictures tonight, a little nostalgia never hurt anybody.