Yesterday.....All my troubles seemed so far away....
well, i didn't meet up with Robert yesterday, he forgot that he had to pick up another guy's parents from the airport in Virginia. So i dunno if we're gonna meet before I leave or not. I basically didn't leave my room yesterday except to go to McDonald's. I just sat around and packed some more. It's so sad when i think about all of my stuff, i had to take my posters off of the wall, and started putting shit in boxes. Yesterday I contemplated the idea of what if i didn't have any more relationships. I mean, I am very self conscious at times, my personality shifts between shy and wild. What if i was just lucky enough to find guys who are weird enough to get with me? I dunno, I think I am just on one of those moods. Robert used to be amazed at some of the things that I knew how to do so well as only a freshman, but he could have been exaggerating. I mean, two people have told me that I give good "service", but whose to say that they just don't know what good "service" is? I guess I better keep doing it until i am sure that I am good. Haha. I think that I may have messed up at work, I told some girls that I don't think that Oba would mind if I told him that I thought that he was cute, and i forgot that the girls at work have big mouths. So I dunno what's gonna happen. When I look at the situation ahead, i begin to think that this is not gonna happen. I mean, with my luck, Oba will not take me up on this offer. And even if he did, I would most likely get caught wherever we chose to do it. Reality bites. Just like the movie says. Peace.