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And once again, I find myself with time to think. As we all know, this never ends well.
More and more lately, I've thought on the matter of relationships, and 'love.' This I believe: humans really are...what's the word that I'm looking for? I'm not sure. Foolish, perhaps? The majority of our young lives is spent looking for 'the one', that one person for whom we have undying affection that never dwindles, for the time that the two shall live. But what is this? What is this urge that causes us to yearn for the love and acceptance of another? Furthermore, why is it that I have this logic set in my head, yet can't seem to follow it? Most, if not all of my friends are happily paired off, some even married / getting married soon. Yet Tom is left alone, as is the usual. I've heard that to live is to feel. If this is truth, I honestly wish that I were dead.
As for other news, work is going fine, somewhat. I've only been there for three months, and yet I already feel as though I've hit a rut--not a good place to be. I'm sincerely hoping it passes soon.
Last week, I was backing out of a parking lot, and scraped the rear bumper of another car. In my infinite wisdom, I looked back and realizing I had hit it, panicked. And what is my first reaction? Not to stop, but to run. Fast forward to a cop showing up at my house and issuing me a summons to district court. Apparently there was someone in the car. Whoops. Goodbye $500-1000 plus court costs. And the possibility of losing my license as well. Whoopee!
tl;dr: Fuck my life.
More and more lately, I've thought on the matter of relationships, and 'love.' This I believe: humans really are...what's the word that I'm looking for? I'm not sure. Foolish, perhaps? The majority of our young lives is spent looking for 'the one', that one person for whom we have undying affection that never dwindles, for the time that the two shall live. But what is this? What is this urge that causes us to yearn for the love and acceptance of another? Furthermore, why is it that I have this logic set in my head, yet can't seem to follow it? Most, if not all of my friends are happily paired off, some even married / getting married soon. Yet Tom is left alone, as is the usual. I've heard that to live is to feel. If this is truth, I honestly wish that I were dead.
As for other news, work is going fine, somewhat. I've only been there for three months, and yet I already feel as though I've hit a rut--not a good place to be. I'm sincerely hoping it passes soon.
Last week, I was backing out of a parking lot, and scraped the rear bumper of another car. In my infinite wisdom, I looked back and realizing I had hit it, panicked. And what is my first reaction? Not to stop, but to run. Fast forward to a cop showing up at my house and issuing me a summons to district court. Apparently there was someone in the car. Whoops. Goodbye $500-1000 plus court costs. And the possibility of losing my license as well. Whoopee!
tl;dr: Fuck my life.