turkey legs, flat tires, and discussions on sexism
...things have been so strange lately, i feel like i am trying to match the person i was two years ago...with the person i am now...i dont like it...i dont know who i am...i see all this pain...i just want to make it go away...i am sorry for all my friends who are in so much pain...all i can say is that it goes away and becomes a painful memory...you won't even remember who you were...or why you did the things you did...and you'll wish you could go back there just to feel alive again...or try and change something that never should have happened...had a wierd dream last night
there was a bleak field and surrouding it were all these cement bleachers stuck into the hillside...my dad and i were there and so were thousands of other people...i think it had to do with skiiing...but i dodnt remember...i through my sweatshirt and jacket off...after the presentation in the middle it was chaos...we were trying to find my jacket and whne i did my dad disappeared...then i was rounding up all these little tiny people in a small room with a desk and a bed...and i was yelling at them tot transform into their animal spirits...i kept yelling and threatening to kill them until they did...one finally did she swallowed some grapes and turned into a cat...and then the other into a mouse...then i went to go rent a boat...b/c it was a day off school and george justin, the animal people and i were goign to go to an island...so i filled the sheet out...and then my old environmental science teacher was tere teaching us how to drive a boat...b/c i didn't know how...he made us put wetsuits on in the water and then try and park it backwards into spaces that looked like arcade games...and these dumb skinheads kept playing...i had to yell at them and try an dpark my boat...the water felt real
there was a bleak field and surrouding it were all these cement bleachers stuck into the hillside...my dad and i were there and so were thousands of other people...i think it had to do with skiiing...but i dodnt remember...i through my sweatshirt and jacket off...after the presentation in the middle it was chaos...we were trying to find my jacket and whne i did my dad disappeared...then i was rounding up all these little tiny people in a small room with a desk and a bed...and i was yelling at them tot transform into their animal spirits...i kept yelling and threatening to kill them until they did...one finally did she swallowed some grapes and turned into a cat...and then the other into a mouse...then i went to go rent a boat...b/c it was a day off school and george justin, the animal people and i were goign to go to an island...so i filled the sheet out...and then my old environmental science teacher was tere teaching us how to drive a boat...b/c i didn't know how...he made us put wetsuits on in the water and then try and park it backwards into spaces that looked like arcade games...and these dumb skinheads kept playing...i had to yell at them and try an dpark my boat...the water felt real