i was goin in the wrong direction
winter break = over. it was fun while it lasted. it was completely awesome seeing everyone from tamburitzans again! i seriously dont know better people then my tammie people.
paulie anne has mono... well the sheet said positive negative... so we are assuming she does till we ask. if she does theres a strong chance i will get it... yaaay.
i finally figured out whats wrong with me. im completely dependant. its funny that im completely dependant because that is the exact reason i stopped being friends with allison... (unknowingly of course) right now im kind of thinking about how it would have been to go to a different school further away without my sisters. would i have cured myself? or just make myself worse? i feel like have to start being independent but that is seriously the scariest thing for me. for some reason im scared shit-less when it comes to growing up. more so then most. every time i think about getting a job and moving into my own apartment somewhere i start crying. its ridiculous.
i spent just about the entire last week of break with my mom and pa. pa was only there because she had the flu and i had no intention of seeing anyone. mostly because ive never been close with my mom at all, but something happened and i found a new support system. that should be good right? so why the hell do i cry all the time! i swear i do not understand myself.
paulie anne has mono... well the sheet said positive negative... so we are assuming she does till we ask. if she does theres a strong chance i will get it... yaaay.
i finally figured out whats wrong with me. im completely dependant. its funny that im completely dependant because that is the exact reason i stopped being friends with allison... (unknowingly of course) right now im kind of thinking about how it would have been to go to a different school further away without my sisters. would i have cured myself? or just make myself worse? i feel like have to start being independent but that is seriously the scariest thing for me. for some reason im scared shit-less when it comes to growing up. more so then most. every time i think about getting a job and moving into my own apartment somewhere i start crying. its ridiculous.
i spent just about the entire last week of break with my mom and pa. pa was only there because she had the flu and i had no intention of seeing anyone. mostly because ive never been close with my mom at all, but something happened and i found a new support system. that should be good right? so why the hell do i cry all the time! i swear i do not understand myself.