Oct 22, 2002 03:22
reading through friends journals tonight (and things that i have been contemplating on my own) i am reminded of a question that came from a talk that i had with my father. this was not a question that he posed to me specifically, but a question that i asked myself after we had finished talking:
have you given up on true happiness for contentment?
think about it and answer truthfully to yourself, it will reveal a lot about where you are in life (and will bring up other questions). are you happy with your job, with your marriage, with your SELF? is there anything you would like to change? are you the only thing that is stopping these changes from happening? ...
the question came from me thinking that that is exactly what my father had done in his life. he had stopped going for his PhD, and with his masters degree he took a university teaching position so he could get married and support his family. i think he always regreted not getting his PhD so he could see where that took him.
of course i am not even at the point in my life that i can answer that question. i am still at the point that i have given up contentment for a 'lifestyle'. i work (or i did), i pay my bills, i hang out with friends, i go through the motions. but i am far from content, and even further from true happiness.