yep it kind of sucked
so last night i was suppose to meet up with a guy....yep he never showed it kind of sucked....i don't know his reason yet so i'm not going to get pissed about it but last night was kind of lonely. before i went to my room though we were all at a friends house and we were all playing different games whether they were on a game system on the tv or on the two computers that we have access to. it was fun at first but then i felt a little attention deprived...i would try to talk to the guy i liked and he wouldn't even hear me...i guess he said i stood him up last night which isn't true...i just got lost on the way back to the hotel where i was staying...i've never been to where i was...why didn't he wait for me? know that maybe i got lost....that pisses me off...i just want to yell at him and be like hello i warned you i might get lost...it makes me wonder if he truly cares about me...if he does i would think that he would have waited for me...where else would i have gone it was fucking 2:30 in the morning....i don't know what to do or think...i'm pissed and i want to yell at him but i don't i just want him to act like he likes me a little...i hate this i fuckin like him too much to be mad at him...i just really want to be with him and have him hold me...we've planned last night for so long we were both looking forward to it...i wonder how long he waited or if he waited at all...it only took me 20 min to get there....you would think that since we waited so long for it that he could wait that long for me...and that is why i question how he feels about me...well i don't know what is going to happen now...he is suppose to be here in a little bit...i guess i'll let you know...talk to you later...
~~~Lisa
~~~Lisa