Lonely Road of Faith
Hello everyone...Its good to write again...I guess I just have been plain tired of writing lately...Even though I feel like there is allot to tell about my life,I kinda decided that it would more than likely only bore the people who read it so I just haven't been writing...If their is anything that I can say of any importance,I guess it would have to be that my birthday is in 7 days,and I'll be 21,and the greatest importance thats on its way,is that I will be a Daddy around the beginning of August...It all seems like it should be really big news,and I guess it is but I cant get over this feeling of loneliness I have been having lately... I really hate that I feel this way,but I cant get it off my back... I mean I have a girlfriend and soon a kid and I am still having this problem... I don't know if its just the fact that I feel more trapped than anything or if its just a hard line Im walking feeling sorry for myself... I feel like all of my friends are abandoning my as well since this has happened... I just wished I knew why...Hell,...it hasn't changed me much at all... I still rodeo,ride horses,and come and go like I always have...So whats the big deal?.....Maybe I should get my girlfriend and just get the hell outa dodge... I duh know...God how I miss childhood.... Everything was so easy and one day at a time... I'll write some more later on when I get my life strait,and my boots on the right foot.... JOSH