(no subject)
I know I haven't updated in a while but..no one reads this anyways so it's okay. I had my vacation. Besides being sick the entire week from my BC pills it was uneventful. I had fun with Neil, I always have fun just being AROUND Neil. He makes me happy. His parents are pretty nice and his kitty is the sweetest thing since my kitties. I was a MAJOR bitch to him today though. I am going to NH to HOPEFULLY get my license back tomorrow and we though about maybe spending the weekend together, but his friends are going to be leaving soon and they wanted to hang out with him, so I made him feel all guilty until he decided to spend time with me instead. Then I told him to go with his friends anyways. I SO hope I didn't ruin the entire weekend for him with guilt about hanging out with his friends, I really don't mind...I just wanted to see him cause I like being happy. I started CRYING..ME...CRYING. I was SO unfair to him..then he told me that he loved me and I pretty much hung up. THAT was bitchy and AWFUL of me. I never should have done that. I do love him, very much. I sent him a few IM's apologizing, now I can only hope that he forgives me for being a petty little jealous, unworthy child.
School starts on Tuesday, not Monday. They are staying closed in respect for July 4th. Whatever. I am nervous about going anyways.
Right now I am just so disappointed in myself for acting so...STUPIDLY. and I really do hope that Neil can forgive me and keep loving me, even if I don't deserve it
School starts on Tuesday, not Monday. They are staying closed in respect for July 4th. Whatever. I am nervous about going anyways.
Right now I am just so disappointed in myself for acting so...STUPIDLY. and I really do hope that Neil can forgive me and keep loving me, even if I don't deserve it