Impossible day
This entry is all dedicated to my stupid shitty sister Grace. Just like this entry title my sister is also impossible. Impossible to understand, to like, and to see cause she's one small person.
Earlier this morning I was (luckily) using the computer for my research paper and damn she goes on like "you're not doing anything useful! do some laundry!!" I couldn't feel anything but the rage I had for her and it makes me grind my teeth.
I had to look for a way to avoid her and so I went to school earlier than I have to.
Everyone might not agree but school is the only place I feel calm. I'm away from everyone I hate and no one even bothers to call my name there.
Studying is my escape boat and I am doing very well in escaping. That also means higher grades in school.
There's probably one thing that makes me happy by the end of the day. And that's the man I love the most. Yes, I have a boyfriend even though I'm so lame...
Though he is busy in school, he still gives me time even just few minutes. Being with him is probably the only thing that makes me not regret living.
I was in school early and I wrote my research paper that is designated for group work. I really didn't mind doing all the work in group works cause more work means more escaping.
Not that hard to study when no one is bothering you. Except for the men just right beside my table speaking in a different language and mixing up with English saying stuffs about getting my number and actually pointing at me. I didn't mind since I know they won't have balls to do so. And it turns out, I was right.
The bell rang and I walked to my classroom. Same old, same old...
I sat on my chair, middle in the very front row, and just like all the other days, I listen to my teacher attentively. Besides, I probably am not the only 18 years old girl that study so much, right?
Besides getting to know I got a high grade, there's nothing more worth talking about while I'm in school.
The last subject ended quite early today and I knew I have to walk up really long stairs just to get to be with my boyfriend. He's worth waiting for and I will never get tired of him. We've been together for almost 10 months now and I'm pretty sure we'll be together for a very long time if not eternity.
Is it wrong to be so in love?...
Waiting didn't take long and I felt my face grew warm when I saw him. He's not that tall but here in Asia that's pretty normal to see couples almost at the same height.
Walking to my jeep stop with him and all his friends was probably our only moment we spend time together since my parents didn't allow me to be in a relationship.
Other than that, there are so much more things I'm not allowed to do. Like have my own phone or have my own social media account. Every time I say this it reminds me of how unfortunate I am. I can never blatantly disobey may parents because they get all threatening and they just want their way to go like how they planned. I guess they have their own reasons...
The moment we'll split ways I still get cold in my feet. I kissed my boyfriend on the cheek to bid goodbye and he showed me a really warm smile.
I cross at the pedestrian and just when I'm getting on the jeep I bumped (not literally) into my ex, the man that is probably the reason why I am prohibited on all these phones and social media.
I walked without looking back since I am so not caring about him anymore.
I just know I am.
Eventually I got home and did a bit of laundry to lighten my sister's mood a bit. So far this day started so aggressively but I just wanna sleep and wake up actually liking the cold air of October.