Paranoid
Okay... I'm unbelievably uncomfortable with people at work now...
Let me start from the beginning. When I broke up with Thomas, I went and stayed in the Bronx with two girls that I work with (sisters). Ever since I got back together with him and moved back "upstate", things have been a little different between us. I was supposed to go to WWE in MSG for Monday night raw... but I never went because I was sick. This past Saturday, I was supposed to go to a Reggaetone concert with them at MSG, but again, I didn't go ... but this was because I got my monthly friend and I didn't feel like going to the concert like that. (I always get a lot of pains) I guess they think that because I bailed on them, that I'm doing it because I'm back with Tom. I tried to explain why I didn't go... but you know how that goes.
Now I feel like I'm not included like I used to be with them at work. I know I don't hang out a lot anymore outside of work... but I have so much going on right now, and I'm not single anymore, so I don't want to make plans to go clubbing or bar hopping every weekend. So I feel like they're starting to not include me anymore... and it's starting to bother me. I also feel like if I talk to them about it, they're going to get defensive, and then that'll make things worse.
So now I'm paraniod, and I think they're talking about me when I'm walking by because they get quiet sometimes.
I feel like I'm back in high school all over again. I hate it.
Let me start from the beginning. When I broke up with Thomas, I went and stayed in the Bronx with two girls that I work with (sisters). Ever since I got back together with him and moved back "upstate", things have been a little different between us. I was supposed to go to WWE in MSG for Monday night raw... but I never went because I was sick. This past Saturday, I was supposed to go to a Reggaetone concert with them at MSG, but again, I didn't go ... but this was because I got my monthly friend and I didn't feel like going to the concert like that. (I always get a lot of pains) I guess they think that because I bailed on them, that I'm doing it because I'm back with Tom. I tried to explain why I didn't go... but you know how that goes.
Now I feel like I'm not included like I used to be with them at work. I know I don't hang out a lot anymore outside of work... but I have so much going on right now, and I'm not single anymore, so I don't want to make plans to go clubbing or bar hopping every weekend. So I feel like they're starting to not include me anymore... and it's starting to bother me. I also feel like if I talk to them about it, they're going to get defensive, and then that'll make things worse.
So now I'm paraniod, and I think they're talking about me when I'm walking by because they get quiet sometimes.
I feel like I'm back in high school all over again. I hate it.