Die Yume Des Noctem
Man, that title is so grammatically incorrect, but in sort of a cute way. I like to pretend that I know fancy languages and stuff, but I obviously don't. I studied german for over five years and today I would have severe trouble ordering an ice cream in Hamburg. That was certainly time and effort well spent. Gosh.
Anyways, it's 4 in the morning and I'm still awake. Erica is sleeping soundly behind me and I wish to God, gods, spirits and nymphs that I can join her soon. Thing is, I haven't really been able to relax much lately, wish I suppose would be labeled as "natural" in my circumstances but there is a lot going on obviously but it's starting to take it's toll. I haven't slept much the past week and I have a hard time relaxing. When I try to really relax my head is overclouded by lots of - let's call them "thoughts" and I immediatly position myself in front of the computer and just drone. I keep droning until I'm about to collapse and then I sleep until the afternoon the day after, unless I have a lecture or something. It's not a good cycle and I'm trying to break it, but y'know... I suck at breaking cycles.
I managed to miss an apointment with Erica today because my alarm didn't go off, and my cellphone seems to be fucked somehow. She had tried to call me plenty of times but none of the calls came through (yesterday my dad told me he had had similar problems when calling me) and thus she was standing in the rain for over an hour waiting for me. After a while she came to my house and I woke up to her banging on my door, crying. I felt like such an idiot, even if it wasn't really my fault, but I do feel guilty. She has been snivelling all day since and I'm worried she might get a cold or something. I really, really hope she'll be okay, the poor thing.
In other news, I posted a video from the Final Fantasy gig on Youtube that someone might want to see. Go here, and enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TcpWNxygks
And at the very last, before I throw my fragile self into bed, I will be posting a second video blog soon. I just need to get all the material together and film some more random stuff. I want to get something from school, but I feel stupid talking to myself while holding a camera in front of my face. I'll see what I can whip out, though. Hold your breaths.
Anyways, it's 4 in the morning and I'm still awake. Erica is sleeping soundly behind me and I wish to God, gods, spirits and nymphs that I can join her soon. Thing is, I haven't really been able to relax much lately, wish I suppose would be labeled as "natural" in my circumstances but there is a lot going on obviously but it's starting to take it's toll. I haven't slept much the past week and I have a hard time relaxing. When I try to really relax my head is overclouded by lots of - let's call them "thoughts" and I immediatly position myself in front of the computer and just drone. I keep droning until I'm about to collapse and then I sleep until the afternoon the day after, unless I have a lecture or something. It's not a good cycle and I'm trying to break it, but y'know... I suck at breaking cycles.
I managed to miss an apointment with Erica today because my alarm didn't go off, and my cellphone seems to be fucked somehow. She had tried to call me plenty of times but none of the calls came through (yesterday my dad told me he had had similar problems when calling me) and thus she was standing in the rain for over an hour waiting for me. After a while she came to my house and I woke up to her banging on my door, crying. I felt like such an idiot, even if it wasn't really my fault, but I do feel guilty. She has been snivelling all day since and I'm worried she might get a cold or something. I really, really hope she'll be okay, the poor thing.
In other news, I posted a video from the Final Fantasy gig on Youtube that someone might want to see. Go here, and enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TcpWNxygks
And at the very last, before I throw my fragile self into bed, I will be posting a second video blog soon. I just need to get all the material together and film some more random stuff. I want to get something from school, but I feel stupid talking to myself while holding a camera in front of my face. I'll see what I can whip out, though. Hold your breaths.