kill time. kill chemistry.

[rocky_whor]

"i change my mind so much i cant even trust it.
my mind change me so much i cant even trust myself."

i might just work my whole spring break.
maybe try to get some ten hour shifts in.
because i rather just work
so i dont realize how unhappy i am. and how i cant even fix that.
plus im avoding my parents. they are driving me insane.
im gonna skip this birthday and just wait until my next.
then i'll be out of the house and downtown with shay.
i just sound like some teenage bitch.
which maybe i am.

a boy drew me a really cute picture.
and i got him a job at my work.
we are going to the zoo friday.
but i dont like him.
but i want to like him.
but im so done with that whole liking someone thing. in general.

i just want to work paint and drink.

shay and i almost just said screw today and go downtown.
but we both had no money
and she said we should just do it next week.
i dont want to plan to ditch. i just want to randomly like today.
oh well.

im sitting across from a cutie
and a pot head.
damn the world of drugs amuses me and interets me.
imagen chalking on drugs.
bet my art would be better.

lets all just run around naked in the rain.