Nothin all to Important
Nothin all to important happened today.... I skipped period F (My Piano Class) because I forgot my music again and I didn't wanna do nothing again like I did yesterday so I just stayed in the computer lab. Some of my past issues are starting to pop up again and it's really starting to bother me. For those of you who don't know my issues they are as follows.... I have a major fear of Dying and i don't want to lose any of my friends which I know is un-avoidable but It's still bothering me a lot. I've been talking to my guidence counsalors, my girlfriend and the S.R.O in our school and their sorta helping but it's hard to help me because I have a hard time conveying my feelings into words. I usually just try to work through things by myself but sometimes I just need someone to talk to. I'm sure everyone can agree with that. I dunno what I'm gonna do, dunno what I can do. The counsalor says it's natural to have these feelings and I know that but it's still rough to deal with. I'm tired of throwing up all the time cause when I start thinking about these things my stomach gets upset and nervous and everything I had previosly ate just comes up. I hate it when it happens and I think my mom may be starting to think that I'm bulemic or something and I don't wanna tell her what's really going on because I don't want to bother her but at the same time I think I may have to..... I dunno... I really need my friends and my girlfriend right now. Their the only people who can help me through this shit. Their the only ones I can trust. Well I better get goin... I'll tty'all latah..... take it easy peoples BYEZ!!!