you don't know what you got till it's gone...
hey, i know i haven't updated in a while but i feel like i need to right now.
as some of y'all my know i was dating the best guy a girl could ever find he loved me and i loved him more than anything...well last night someone told him that i was talking to another guy behind his back...he broke up with me. i was crused actually i still am. because i love him with all my heart and i need him in my life.
i've been dumped before but i never really cared. i felt like there was always another guy out there for me no big deal....not with him how could i possibly find another guy that's perfect for me? i mean i'm in love with him and i always will be. idk guys i'm not use to this at all....we talked on the phone a lil while ago i'm still trying to get him to take me back even though i'm not worth it i'm still gonna try bc i have to i have to get him back because without him i'm nothing i'm really nothing...i could never find another guy i trust more than him i could never find another guy that i love more than him he's my world and still is. i just hope that i can get him to take me back because i really really need him he's my escape y'all know how my parents are well they're worse now and i need him to help me through this...i never thought i would be saying this about any guy in my life but i guess you can never tell how things will turn out in love and all i know is that i love Brandon Wayne Jessee with all my heart and i desperately need to be with him.
i'm really to my breaking point right now, it's just that he's my world and i need him back plus my parents are wanting me to practice more than ever and idk they want me to go to this school where i'll study and play softball all the time but i don't want that guys i just wanna normal life, honest i do...i wanna be a normal teenager and get to mess up and no big deal. i wanna have weekends to hang out with my friends. i wanna be home more than 1 day a week during summer guys traveling is great, but not when you don't get to do anything bc of risk of injury...ya know what's bullshit. they say that i can't do all this shit bc i might get hurt and can't play but damn it i cracked a rib and sprained my ankle one game and dad said suck it up and play. that's suck a nice family don't you think?
well i'm gonna go before i really lose it, i need to lay down or something to calm me down i feel weak really weak bye guys!
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