My Last Jurnal entry 4 awhile
Ive held my feelings in bout tha death of my grandma 4 along time: when i go 2 her grave agen im gonna read this note i rote her and then gonna bury it next 2 her grave, here goes nuttin:
To Grandma,
Its been over 2 years since you went away; Right now im speechless on what to write and say; you were the only girl that i could trust; when i wanted to talk you wouldnt make a fuss; you gave everything to me; thats why i would like to say im sorry; I wanted to give you somethin back; But i was powerless so i could only sit back; and watch all the pain you went through; but you were still strong enough to say i love you; i could only turn away and say ok; i didnt know how to handle such pain; my world was slowly falling apart; there has been so much emotion running thru my heart; i remember when you gave me cookies and so much other food; going to your house i thought i was so cool; when you visited you bought me eclairs and such; but i feel as if i didnt thank you enough; I never told you how much you meant to me; now your gone and i can only weep; life is so hard when you cant talk; i hope your in heaven cuz you were an angel here; i hope your having an enjoyable trip; on Earth you lived life till your last breath; i wish you were here so i could tell you i love you; Grandma i just wanna say thank you; I hope your smiling down on me; Cuz im always smiling up at you; I think about you now and i finally start to cry; Grandma i miss you why did you die?; I miss your laugh and i miss your smile; in the hospital you had humor all the while; i felt like ive lost half my heart; with the other half shriveling up; i cant wait to put this on your grave; you were the best woman and im not ashamed; to say this to anyone; you always made me smile and always had fun; so for the last time i just wanna say thank you; for being there and i want you to know that i love you;
Your grandson,
Joseph