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Yeah shit sucks. Same problems as before...I have to stop and think. Do I really want to go through with it again?! Fuck yeah! If I have to then I will. I love Matt with all of my heart and we've put so much time and effort into our relationship that I won't let ANYONE fuck it up now. Ambers just gunna hafta deal with it I guess. I don't know Matt's opinion because he will not give it, so I am going to continue to push for him to NOT see or TALK to her anymore. HOpefully if he loves me as much as he says he does and he says he can do anything for me he will see how much this really hurts me and go through with it, which of course he does so he should. I would do anything for him! If he asked me to do this for him, I would in a heartbeat. I don't ever want himt o go through bad things and if I can prevent them you bet I'm going to jump at the chance to make it right! Matt is my best friend, my boyfriend, and my life. He makes me happy. The happiest I'm ever going to be. I just hope he can see this from my point of view instead of worrying about hurting her so bad. I understand he feels bad and I understand everything, but I hope he loves me enough to care about me getting hurt by this then her. In fact I knwo he does, so he shouldn't have a problem with doing this ONE thing for me. I have never asked him to do anythign esle like this before. I would do the same for him because I love him so fucking much!