Where Do I Start?

[rockteen]

So this “straight boy” who’s using me as an experiment is now getting to me big time…and not in a good way. He’s the one who asked me out and like dude…what the fuck now? I never said he should like fall head over heels. Everything is just going out of control. Am I even making sense? Anyways…fuck it! He expects me to text him when he feels fit…then I do after a week of not speaking to him…He comes back with a I don’t care message…What the fuck is up with that up? Today I get a message with the song Why - Avril Lavigne dedicated to this fucking straight/bi situation that we are in. I don’t even know how to feel…I don’t even have a crush on him…why did I say yes in the first place? Well I did think he was kinda cutish in the beginning now all of that’s like gone. Maybe I’m just immune to love. But that can’t be cause I do love someone and I will do anything for them…So what do I make of the situation? I don’t even know when our 1 month anniversary is...I think it’s passed. But fuck now I’m listening to this damn song and thinking to myself, this guy has fallen in love with me….HELLLLLP…..It’s not suppose to be this way. I love someone else…dearly.

Maybe I should just call it quits! I think it’s over…Yeah it’s definitely OVER!

Later x

NB: The clovers there for a reason. *wink*