She hasn't answered any of my phone calls or texts in the past week (except when she picked up, then hung up her phone immediately afterwords tonight
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i'm in english class, i don't feel like logging in.
anonymous
October 14 2008, 17:13:32 UTC
I can see why you won't talk to me anymore...to think I was actually WONDERING why when you never answered me when I said I'd be in Chicago back in April.
It was never about 'ignoring' you. It was about caring about you but being too fucking stupid and young to tell you that I was too confused, too busy, too fickle to tell you outright what I was feeling because I KNEW that you loved me. I knew you cared for me and the last thing that I would ever, EVER want to do was to see you upset--to see me MAKE you upset. I was fucking selfish. And the thing is, I had to experience that outright to really realize how shitty that was. Karma has led me down a few bad roads nearly identical to yours to let me know that I was a huge, inconsiderate bitch. And for that, for everything, I'm sorry. And I have no idea if I'll ever see you in person again which is why I'm unloading this via livejournal..anonymously yet completely NOT. And about Cheyanne, not that I'm anyone that you need to be taking relationship advice from, but if she's anything like me--like I was to you, I mean--drop her now. Don't let her do that to you. She lives in fucking Wisconsin, which has got to already have your heart in a knot..don't let her break it, too.
It was never about 'ignoring' you. It was about caring about you but being too fucking stupid and young to tell you that I was too confused, too busy, too fickle to tell you outright what I was feeling because I KNEW that you loved me. I knew you cared for me and the last thing that I would ever, EVER want to do was to see you upset--to see me MAKE you upset. I was fucking selfish.
And the thing is, I had to experience that outright to really realize how shitty that was. Karma has led me down a few bad roads nearly identical to yours to let me know that I was a huge, inconsiderate bitch. And for that, for everything, I'm sorry. And I have no idea if I'll ever see you in person again which is why I'm unloading this via livejournal..anonymously yet completely NOT.
And about Cheyanne,
not that I'm anyone that you need to be taking relationship advice from, but if she's anything like me--like I was to you, I mean--drop her now. Don't let her do that to you. She lives in fucking Wisconsin, which has got to already have your heart in a knot..don't let her break it, too.
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So, I JUST logged in and read your comment you left me.
Nice timing we have, huh?
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