Boys Who Like Boys, With Their Hands in Their Pockets; Silent

[rocksteadylife]

In the middle of encouraging a friend to be less shy, and not fear rejection so much, I had an epiphane. I've always been shy. Me? Shy? Yes. Shyness is a fear of approaching people, of saying the wrong thing, of being rejected. Just because I am proactive and have to deal with this everyday, does not mean that I don't fear it any less. You

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[anonymous]

"I have my best friends, and I have friends. But when have I last seen you all? No one calls me to go out. No one calls me to do anything. No one seems to seek me out. I made a promise to myself a long time ago that I would no longer desire someone for a friend, that they would have to desire me as their friend."

Perhaps you shouldn't focus so much on who is not calling you, and pay more attention to the people who ARE calling you. I have called and left messages, without so much as a text message back. Relationships are two-way streets. You can't expect to get anything out of them if you don't put in your fair share as well. I have always thought of you as one of my closest friends - hell, we've even discussed living in NYC together - but now I'm not so sure what we are. I'd like to hang out with you. And just because I now live forty miles away, doesn't mean we can't. I'm on campus four out of the five weekdays. There is plenty of time in there to get lunch and catch up, or to hang out at night. Look, I love ya and you know it. You also know that I'm brutally honest with you and tell you like it is. Here's the deal. Stop bitchin!! Appreciate what you have and who you have in your life. It's easy to see just the negative, but you have to take control. We've all been there, we all know what it's like. Self-doubt is a bitch. But people do love you, and don't question it. Alright, babe? So now fucking call me!!
(by the way, it's nico.)

Nico

[rocksteadylife]

I've meant to call you... really. I've bad time-management. What are you doing Thursday? Lunch? I've time from 12-3, but I also need to study during that time, too. I have an exam at 3. We need to hang out.

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