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i hate being a girl... i really do. i have been so emotional lately and it sucks. i spent all night saturday crying and sunday morning. its such bull shit. ugh. i just hate crying and i hate crying over her because its not like i can do anything about it. its not like it even matters. its not like its ever going to be the same.
i don't even think i want it to be how it was. not if it would just end up like this again. there's no point then. yeah, basically what it comes down to is that theres no point to anything. relationships are so stupid. you find the one who you are supposed to be with and then you can't be with them. so i say again... whats the point?
well it's not like i'll pry ever see her again anyway. she's moving back to lansing for a few months and i'm moving back to gr. she has all her friends who hate me and i have all my friends back in gr who just want me to be happy. i don't even know why i'm talking about this. prolly cuz i have pms and can't get her outta my head right now. ugh. i was doing so well and then BAM not so well. well i think she is going to go on vacation coming up so i won't even see her online. i need i vacation. i hope she has fun. i'm sure she will.
do you ever wonder why people are brought into your life?? cuz i wonder that all the time... i just have so many questions with nobody to answer them for me.
things will get better as the week goes on i guess. i have 3 exams this week. 2 being finals. so i'm gonna get thoroughly wasted on thursday night. who wants to get drunk??
my little guys are getting so big now. i guess amanda and richard are moving into a house or something soon. that means i won't get to see ryan too much anymore. sad face. chase is gonna be in 3rd grade coming up and he is a brat now. he is so annoying now. i still love him, but i want to beat him every time i go home. dyl is so damn cute. still naughty, but he always holds my hand and wants me to take him to my moms house to play. blake is like 10 pounds or something now. he's the spittin image of how chase was when he was born. he's quiet and just content with anything as long as you hold him. ah the familia. i need to go home and see them soon. well i will pry be living there soon so it doesn't really matter.
i don't even think i want it to be how it was. not if it would just end up like this again. there's no point then. yeah, basically what it comes down to is that theres no point to anything. relationships are so stupid. you find the one who you are supposed to be with and then you can't be with them. so i say again... whats the point?
well it's not like i'll pry ever see her again anyway. she's moving back to lansing for a few months and i'm moving back to gr. she has all her friends who hate me and i have all my friends back in gr who just want me to be happy. i don't even know why i'm talking about this. prolly cuz i have pms and can't get her outta my head right now. ugh. i was doing so well and then BAM not so well. well i think she is going to go on vacation coming up so i won't even see her online. i need i vacation. i hope she has fun. i'm sure she will.
do you ever wonder why people are brought into your life?? cuz i wonder that all the time... i just have so many questions with nobody to answer them for me.
things will get better as the week goes on i guess. i have 3 exams this week. 2 being finals. so i'm gonna get thoroughly wasted on thursday night. who wants to get drunk??
my little guys are getting so big now. i guess amanda and richard are moving into a house or something soon. that means i won't get to see ryan too much anymore. sad face. chase is gonna be in 3rd grade coming up and he is a brat now. he is so annoying now. i still love him, but i want to beat him every time i go home. dyl is so damn cute. still naughty, but he always holds my hand and wants me to take him to my moms house to play. blake is like 10 pounds or something now. he's the spittin image of how chase was when he was born. he's quiet and just content with anything as long as you hold him. ah the familia. i need to go home and see them soon. well i will pry be living there soon so it doesn't really matter.