red teary eyes & sure this is not paranoid.
Current: Tears & Head Spinning.
Can't name names but yeah, internet does amazing things. Now, start to think that perhaps owning a journal book once again is a better option.
I had a talk with my dad which nearly made me tear & it's so awkward to cry infront of him. I was holding back every single liquid that was already forming in my eyes. And I love how I'm able to talk to him like a friend. Really appreciate whatever he has done for me + he knows what's best for me.
Home & things got bad. I just had to let it out. I wanted to hold back my tears & save from being questioned. But there's no way to hide your true feelings & emotion to someone you really love. Thanks, Phoebe for copy-paste the whole chunk of words to me. You know what I mean. I owe you big time.Though, I find it rather upsetting. I can cry for ages. I cry for 10 minutes, i rest for 1-2 minutes & it continues till now. I've got work tomorrow but I could not stop reading what's shown to me. I'll just have a good cry-myself-to-sleep-session. Definitely with puffy eyes tomorrow. But I don't care either.
Sucks being me now. I'm just speechless. Lost for words. Well, it's so heartbreaking. I wish I could show & talk to my dad now. Maybe then I'll sleep better. But he's already asleep. Should just stay in my room & be stuck with this disappointment.
2 weeks has caused a lot of issues. But i've already stayed away from it. I had bad days. I'm not that. But that 2 weeks could create a new everlasting impression about me. 2 weeks of pure mental breakdown VS close to 1 year of the true me. They say bad overcome the good. Now I understand. It's just so depressing. I couldn't say much.
Reality check: Stupid + Ugly + Whore/Bitch/Slut = Me.
All these while, i've been giving you love to the max my heart could ever give & to even have the thought to be labelled that way is beyond my imagination. Never once, never once I have those thoughts. Never once I would ever compare. What you get from me is pure & sincere love. Not just for the sake of it.
It's just so sad. & i cant type any further. My eyes are all teary. I'll just soak myself in tears. And all these is because I truly love you.
P.s. I'm sorry cause I'm supposed to be sleeping right now but I just couldn't do it.
Can't name names but yeah, internet does amazing things. Now, start to think that perhaps owning a journal book once again is a better option.
I had a talk with my dad which nearly made me tear & it's so awkward to cry infront of him. I was holding back every single liquid that was already forming in my eyes. And I love how I'm able to talk to him like a friend. Really appreciate whatever he has done for me + he knows what's best for me.
Home & things got bad. I just had to let it out. I wanted to hold back my tears & save from being questioned. But there's no way to hide your true feelings & emotion to someone you really love. Thanks, Phoebe for copy-paste the whole chunk of words to me. You know what I mean. I owe you big time.Though, I find it rather upsetting. I can cry for ages. I cry for 10 minutes, i rest for 1-2 minutes & it continues till now. I've got work tomorrow but I could not stop reading what's shown to me. I'll just have a good cry-myself-to-sleep-session. Definitely with puffy eyes tomorrow. But I don't care either.
Sucks being me now. I'm just speechless. Lost for words. Well, it's so heartbreaking. I wish I could show & talk to my dad now. Maybe then I'll sleep better. But he's already asleep. Should just stay in my room & be stuck with this disappointment.
2 weeks has caused a lot of issues. But i've already stayed away from it. I had bad days. I'm not that. But that 2 weeks could create a new everlasting impression about me. 2 weeks of pure mental breakdown VS close to 1 year of the true me. They say bad overcome the good. Now I understand. It's just so depressing. I couldn't say much.
Reality check: Stupid + Ugly + Whore/Bitch/Slut = Me.
All these while, i've been giving you love to the max my heart could ever give & to even have the thought to be labelled that way is beyond my imagination. Never once, never once I have those thoughts. Never once I would ever compare. What you get from me is pure & sincere love. Not just for the sake of it.
It's just so sad. & i cant type any further. My eyes are all teary. I'll just soak myself in tears. And all these is because I truly love you.
P.s. I'm sorry cause I'm supposed to be sleeping right now but I just couldn't do it.