Tragic Flaws, and etc.
This is addressed to no one in particular. I'm just thinking via- LJ.
I'm not quite sure what it is, but I think there may be something wrong with me. For some reason, people (as in pretty much everyone I know) feel like they can't tell me things. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I even care a great deal about everyone's sex stories, drug habits, etc, because for most people that doesn't change who they are. I guess. But I guess the fact that people go out of their way to not tell me important things about their lives has to say something about me. Maybe I'm judgmental. Maybe I'm not a good listener. Maybe both. Maybe I'm just a boring person, and people feel like they can't relate to me. Or maybe I'm writing this because I'm just not used to feeling excluded. I mean honestly, I've pretty much always (since grade school) had a close circle of "best" friends, and I can't remember the last time I was completely alone, "looking in", so to speak. Don't worry, I'm not asking anyone to change or anything like that, except for maybe myself. However, I'm not really sure of how to go about doing that. I'm not even sure if I want to change who I am. Or what I need to "work on". I should probably just accept that ignorance is bliss, and forget this terrible feeling all together. Ok. *breath* I'm over this. All I know is that as of late, it's the first time since I've been in college that I just want to go home.
I'm not quite sure what it is, but I think there may be something wrong with me. For some reason, people (as in pretty much everyone I know) feel like they can't tell me things. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I even care a great deal about everyone's sex stories, drug habits, etc, because for most people that doesn't change who they are. I guess. But I guess the fact that people go out of their way to not tell me important things about their lives has to say something about me. Maybe I'm judgmental. Maybe I'm not a good listener. Maybe both. Maybe I'm just a boring person, and people feel like they can't relate to me. Or maybe I'm writing this because I'm just not used to feeling excluded. I mean honestly, I've pretty much always (since grade school) had a close circle of "best" friends, and I can't remember the last time I was completely alone, "looking in", so to speak. Don't worry, I'm not asking anyone to change or anything like that, except for maybe myself. However, I'm not really sure of how to go about doing that. I'm not even sure if I want to change who I am. Or what I need to "work on". I should probably just accept that ignorance is bliss, and forget this terrible feeling all together. Ok. *breath* I'm over this. All I know is that as of late, it's the first time since I've been in college that I just want to go home.