i am jack's boring post.
i am getting sucked in....i can see no end to the madness. this culture has swallowed me whole, and i want more. why? cause i am a greedy dirty american. but i do, i want more. i am martha stewart polishing the brass on the titanic. i am everything i hate. and i am jack's total lack of surprise.
i don't understand why i can identify a problem and not be able to fix it....of course i don't necessarily want to fix it so i guess that is the problem. oh well.
problem: i bought a bike....ok that isn't a big deal, but ever since then i have been looking at shit to put on it and fix it up and just when i think i am done i want more...i had it all planned out. i was going to get a mini, but then i said no i will get a bike since i always wanted one and i will pay down my car, and i will fix up the laptop i just ordered (which all that is left is the 2 gig of ram, 1 of which i am ordering tomorrow) and then maybe get another guitar, but i will be done and then i will save and save and save....but i am trapped. with the axe to my social life (also known as night shift - with what looks like a lot of fridays working) i have no time to spend incidental money during the week, so i figured i would be happy and not spend that much....on the contrary, i am spending like a mad bastard. and altough i am being helpful toward debt (i am, after paying the laptop off, going to put down 600 a month toward the car and 600 a month toward the bike, which will mean in less than a year i will be 100% debt free) i am now in my spare time at work (most of the time) looking at ways to spend that chunk of change after i get out of debt - like buying another bike!! anyway, yeah, i am trying to put a cap on my capitalism....haha we will see how it goes, but just thought i would vent about me getting a job to pay for shit i don't need, but wanting more money so i can get even more shit that i never dreamed up until i got what i have now....ahhhh the vicious cycle.
oh well, i need to learn a higher means of benevolance - sp?
but for now, i will just convince all my friends to get deeper into debt and buy motorcycles so we can ride together.
goodnight all, i love you....especially you.
i don't understand why i can identify a problem and not be able to fix it....of course i don't necessarily want to fix it so i guess that is the problem. oh well.
problem: i bought a bike....ok that isn't a big deal, but ever since then i have been looking at shit to put on it and fix it up and just when i think i am done i want more...i had it all planned out. i was going to get a mini, but then i said no i will get a bike since i always wanted one and i will pay down my car, and i will fix up the laptop i just ordered (which all that is left is the 2 gig of ram, 1 of which i am ordering tomorrow) and then maybe get another guitar, but i will be done and then i will save and save and save....but i am trapped. with the axe to my social life (also known as night shift - with what looks like a lot of fridays working) i have no time to spend incidental money during the week, so i figured i would be happy and not spend that much....on the contrary, i am spending like a mad bastard. and altough i am being helpful toward debt (i am, after paying the laptop off, going to put down 600 a month toward the car and 600 a month toward the bike, which will mean in less than a year i will be 100% debt free) i am now in my spare time at work (most of the time) looking at ways to spend that chunk of change after i get out of debt - like buying another bike!! anyway, yeah, i am trying to put a cap on my capitalism....haha we will see how it goes, but just thought i would vent about me getting a job to pay for shit i don't need, but wanting more money so i can get even more shit that i never dreamed up until i got what i have now....ahhhh the vicious cycle.
oh well, i need to learn a higher means of benevolance - sp?
but for now, i will just convince all my friends to get deeper into debt and buy motorcycles so we can ride together.
goodnight all, i love you....especially you.