Reminissing- A must read and comment entry! ^___^
Wow. You know deep thinking can really get your mind rolling…there is so much making me go back and remembering old times, either as a child or older as a teen in I.F. It sort of creeps me out to be honest. I mean I was looking at a picture of me in grade 9, I was still in I.F then, I was happy but…. not really. I mean I was so dead inside, shy, quiet, meek and invisible. I didn’t dare draw attention to myself nor did I want to even really be seen. I was a quiet, fat nerd whose family and social was public news and screwed up. And as much as I wished I would, didn’t see myself graduating. I saw myself going nowhere in the middle of nowhere. I wanted to die and be left alone. I was on a downward spiral to darkness, failure and willing…death.
>>FASTFORWARD>>
Come to the present now. LOL Wow! I am no longer the shell of a human I once was. I am Maegan Porter, graduating student at St. Joseph High School. I am far from popular but I am certainly no invisible nerd or shy anymore. I draw attention to myself and care less about what other people think about it. I mean seriously…who cares what some people think? I will willingly volunteer to stand in front of a crowd and speak or even dance (today in the cafeteria for instance) I am going somewhere in life, my friends are my rocks and are amazing and wonderful. I love them so much for how they have changed me for the better. It them who moulded most of the being you see today and I thank them deeply for that.
My school, aside from décor, is by far the best school ever and I am in many clubs, the teachers/staff love me and I am destined for greater things. Seriously in I.F I would be drunk somewhere, a failure with no goal and a boring useless life. As of next week I will be working backstage at a concert for the greater good and hopefully talking to Bono of U2 and apparently Bob Geldof as well.
For all the beautiful northern winters I would never give this up. Sacrifices mean Rewards later on and I chose to sacrifice a kitten so I could later be a tiger. I mean who would have thought id meet my hero and idol in my high school…. come on! I feel sorry for those students back in the north, they will never experience what I am feeling right now. Simple-minded people who mean well but do more damage than anything good. As much as I love Iroquois Falls, I wouldn’t go back. I had my good times but the ones I have here and I am to have…. they beat out the ones I have already had up there. I will never forget them, they helped make me who I am, but the bad beat out the good and I was glad to escape. I am happy now, I am working for a great cause, meeting people who inspire me and humble me, I am learning in the greatest of ways and I will be going to one of the most known/respected esthetic schools in Canada come next year. I would never have gotten this far in I.F and not many from there will.
My life is finally fun and full filling. Idols, concerts, friendships, love, peace and life itself. I am living here, I am living now. I traded in my former self; a bush tomboy who cared for little, for the me now. I would never go back on that choice. God knows I am happier and willing to live now, to give living a chance. Rough times have come and they will come again but I will face them and overcome them. That can be sure. I won’t let negative shadows taint my bright dreams. Not ever again. My Dad may try, others as well. But they wont succeed, they can’t I am no longer their puppet to lead. I am free and I am living the free life happily now.
Thinking and reminiscing really is fun…I should do it more often, It will show me just why I do what I do…it should do the same for you. ^__^
Love to all and thanks….
Maeg
>>FASTFORWARD>>
Come to the present now. LOL Wow! I am no longer the shell of a human I once was. I am Maegan Porter, graduating student at St. Joseph High School. I am far from popular but I am certainly no invisible nerd or shy anymore. I draw attention to myself and care less about what other people think about it. I mean seriously…who cares what some people think? I will willingly volunteer to stand in front of a crowd and speak or even dance (today in the cafeteria for instance) I am going somewhere in life, my friends are my rocks and are amazing and wonderful. I love them so much for how they have changed me for the better. It them who moulded most of the being you see today and I thank them deeply for that.
My school, aside from décor, is by far the best school ever and I am in many clubs, the teachers/staff love me and I am destined for greater things. Seriously in I.F I would be drunk somewhere, a failure with no goal and a boring useless life. As of next week I will be working backstage at a concert for the greater good and hopefully talking to Bono of U2 and apparently Bob Geldof as well.
For all the beautiful northern winters I would never give this up. Sacrifices mean Rewards later on and I chose to sacrifice a kitten so I could later be a tiger. I mean who would have thought id meet my hero and idol in my high school…. come on! I feel sorry for those students back in the north, they will never experience what I am feeling right now. Simple-minded people who mean well but do more damage than anything good. As much as I love Iroquois Falls, I wouldn’t go back. I had my good times but the ones I have here and I am to have…. they beat out the ones I have already had up there. I will never forget them, they helped make me who I am, but the bad beat out the good and I was glad to escape. I am happy now, I am working for a great cause, meeting people who inspire me and humble me, I am learning in the greatest of ways and I will be going to one of the most known/respected esthetic schools in Canada come next year. I would never have gotten this far in I.F and not many from there will.
My life is finally fun and full filling. Idols, concerts, friendships, love, peace and life itself. I am living here, I am living now. I traded in my former self; a bush tomboy who cared for little, for the me now. I would never go back on that choice. God knows I am happier and willing to live now, to give living a chance. Rough times have come and they will come again but I will face them and overcome them. That can be sure. I won’t let negative shadows taint my bright dreams. Not ever again. My Dad may try, others as well. But they wont succeed, they can’t I am no longer their puppet to lead. I am free and I am living the free life happily now.
Thinking and reminiscing really is fun…I should do it more often, It will show me just why I do what I do…it should do the same for you. ^__^
Love to all and thanks….
Maeg