BA HUM BUG!!!

[rockstarpixie3]

Can't sleep. Don't wanna take no more sleeping pills but I think I will have to resort to them soon.
I hate fighting. I hate hating. I hate madness. Let's not fight, hate, or be mad k?
Party coming soon. Excited? I think so.
I also hate uncertainty. I like to know how things are gonna go before they go. Does that make sense? ....I think not...
I HONESTLY don't think Troy realizes how much he really means to me. You asked if it's just a game...Babe...it's not.
Today, or yesterday rather since it's like 3am, was a HORRIBLE day. WOW.  First horrible day in a while. I kinda forgot how those went.
Went to church. Who's proud? I AM.

I love...

• coming out of the shower then realizing there are no tangles when I brush my hair.
• wearing shorts, then being proud that I shaved that morning. ;p
• freshly painted nails.
• when the servite boys do the STUPIDEST shit to make me smile. :D
• when my sister buys me gifts.
• getting wake up calls from my boyfriend.
• getting ANY calls from my boyfriend.
• that my boyfriend thinks I don't know how I can get what I want. (MUAH!)
• that my boyfriend loves me enough to spoil me, yet still teach me how to NOT be a brat.
• that I can tell my boyfriend anything and everything.
• that my boyfriend puts up with me.
• my boyfriend.

I hate...

• when anyone, especially Troy, is mad at me.
• being away from my boyfriend.
  
• going to get ice cream, pulling out the spoon, bowl, and chocolate syrup only to find that it's just an empty carton.
• not seeing people I need to see for a long time.
• when I'm not special.
• when I don't get what I want.
• that I am not as independent as I used to me.
• that I don't have a puppy to love me.
• that people don't take me seriously enough sometimes.
• that I can't sleep at night.
• changes and uncertainty.
  
• when you don't care.