WOW...
So it has successfully been FOUR MONTHS since I have even logged onto this crazy little journal of mine...
Well in case people were wondering.. I am indeed alive and well!!! haha.
I don't even know where to begin.. how do you attempt to sum up the most insane four months of a persons life??
Well... here goes...
SO I have the day off from school today... and I don't know what motivated me to change this LJ but I went and looked @ my own profile and i had bands on there that i LOVED when i was a freshman in HS and it still said i was located in charlotte... and I've nearly lived in Orlando for 2 years.. and I just thought "damn this is kinda old". Even the background picture was of the brooklyn bridge... because when i got out of florida thats where I wanted to move. HA.... Things change.
A lot has gone on over the last four months... And its all given me more and more strength to do something exciting with my life... I graduate in 5 months.... and who knows where I'll go... but I do know I will go somewhere, get out of here, and make the best of what I've got.
In October I lost the one and only person I knew and could trust in this city and the relationship that was left when he moved ended completely about a month and a half ago.... and when all this happened I didn't even know how to function... and I thought everything in my life was going to fall apart... now that I look back on it... it was the BEST thing to ever happen to me. It set me free in a way no one and nothing else could ever have done. And it took a lot out of me... and I had to really do things on my own and make my own choices and desicions about what I wanted. It was the first time I had really been selfish in thinking about what was good for only ME. And it felt good because after I knew what I wanted I knew i could change my mind if I wanted to because I depended on no one. And in the end, I'm the one who is doing something with my life, and the only important things to me are my dog and my career... so if I end up with a successful career... and Bailey... that's all that matters.
Thats all I really have to say about t hat situation because frankly I could write a book on things I've learned about how people treat you, and the things you think people will never do... but everyone knows the story at this point... so its over, and thats all that matters, and I'm a better person because of it...
I don't really knwo what else to talk about because frankly most people reading these words have a myspace and so I don't know who has seen all my updates on that.... we all know LJ has received the backburner since Myspace has taken over... so I apologize LJ... its not our fault... myspace was the new kid.... we had to hang out with him for a while...
Hey there is some good news I have... I GOT A TATTOO!! I'm getting my second one today. Shh don't tell my mother. But pics are on my myspace.. and soon the new one will have pics up too. But I got it about a month ago... and it was my way of just putting Music FIRST and letting that be my reminder that music is the only thing that I can really love and the only thing that I can really count on.
Ok well what else can I tell you?? Oh yeah... I suppose I could tell you that I'm interning with Johnny Wright's Management company WEG, its here in Orlando... I am just your basic intern... and I just started so I'm really excited to see what I get out of it. (Side Note: Do we remember how I applied for an internship OVER a year ago there... and I ended up not getting it... HA what now??! haha jk... I worked the system...and I won. HOLLER!) But I've met a lot of people there and I think it will be an awesome opportunity until I graduate.
I also don't even know if people know that I have my Associates Degree in Recording Arts now... that happened in September... and right after that I started my Bachelors in Entertainment Business... and now I'm in my 5TH month. Only 4 months left.. woo hoo... So I also left school for a while and took about 6 weeks off in December and January. Bailey and I headed to NC.. and it was AWESOME to get to spend all that time with my friends and family. I literallly hadn't been in Charlotte for more than a week at a time in over a year and so it was awesome to get to relax and do NOTHING. I loved it, and I wish I could go home right now to see everyone... but don't worry kids... APRIL 14TH... i'll be back for a week of good shows!
Aside from school.. I still hang out with the same people and I love them all... I miss Sarah more than life itself... but don't worry she's in L.A. working @ Sony... so we should all be jealous.
And its funny last night Meghan and I had one of those nights where you just talk and talk and talk for what seems like days... Meghan and I have been put in somewhat identical cirumstances over the last few weeks and it was fun to just sit there and talk about them, and laugh, and also realize the ZERO potential they give our lives have. haha. We literally sat in the car from about midnight to about 3:55AM and we just talked about life and it was just one of "those" talks... maybe I'll talk more about that later... but it was a good one... kind of depressing... but it was good to have.
So ok musically speaking... (which i haven't spoken of for a while)
WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH EVERYONE??
WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
WHO HAVE YOU SEEN LIVE RECENTLY??
I have been a NUTCASE with music over the last 2 months or so... I've spent $85038498 on new music and I've enjoyed every second of it. I have also been on a show high... I've literally been to one almost every night for at least the past month or so. Its awesome...
Right now the bands stuck in my head or at least on repeat on my ipod (yep i had to buy a new one because the old one is gone forever):
-The Panic Division
-Imogen Heap
-Dropping Daylight
-October Fall
-Damone
-Emery
I literally CANNOT stop listening to these bands... and I've just sort of surrounded myself with music and music people over the last few months and I think its really starting to get good...
I even think I am going to move to Tampa after I graduate in August. I have a cool opportunity at Fueled By Ramen that I want to take up. And hell I'm only an hour away anyway... and as much as I love Sarah W. And as much as I want to be in L.A. I think i need to have a small stepping stone before i make that huge move because I know I could do it, but I really just am excited to see what I can get out the FBR experience. And I think it would just be good to move somewhere and work somewhere ON MY OWN with no roomates and no school involved. But don't worry... L.A. WILL happen... and don't you doubt that. ...I have actually been to Tampa the last few weekends to of course see Sarah M, and to go to shows.... and I'm going again this weekend. And the more I go the more I like the city.. so we'll see what comes out of this.. but I'm hoping good things.
So speaking of L.A.... Of all the years I have been talking about moving out there or the fact that my mom wants to move out there... everyone will be glad to know she sold our hosue this week.. and I'm coming home in April to help her pack everything up because KIDS SHE'S REALLY GOING TO L.A. My mom took the plunge and shes quitting her job taking everything she owns and moving to L.A. to do what shes wanted to do for fourty-something years. I'm SO excited for her.. and its so funny because we both are really going to experience this whole moving new job new career thing together and I know she'll be so much happier out there, and I just can't wait to see what shes able to do out there.
Well its 2 something in the afternoon... that means its time to get out of bed and be productive...
LIke going to verizon... because my cell phone bill was $3200 THIS MONTH!!! HAAAA. And no I didn't talk that much Its just a mistake because I have the dumbest phone ever... no one ever buy a treo.. ok?
So I think I'm going to start maybe updating this sucker more often.. because Its terrible to sit here and try and remember all of the things I've done since November?!?! And I know theres 3 million pages worth of fun and exciting things I should tell you.. but I'm sorry its all just crammed into these 20 something paragraphs.
OK well this was fun.. I'll add more later and update more often... I've got lots of pictures to show everyone... so look out for those!
ps- I got my haircut yesterday. yay.
Well in case people were wondering.. I am indeed alive and well!!! haha.
I don't even know where to begin.. how do you attempt to sum up the most insane four months of a persons life??
Well... here goes...
SO I have the day off from school today... and I don't know what motivated me to change this LJ but I went and looked @ my own profile and i had bands on there that i LOVED when i was a freshman in HS and it still said i was located in charlotte... and I've nearly lived in Orlando for 2 years.. and I just thought "damn this is kinda old". Even the background picture was of the brooklyn bridge... because when i got out of florida thats where I wanted to move. HA.... Things change.
A lot has gone on over the last four months... And its all given me more and more strength to do something exciting with my life... I graduate in 5 months.... and who knows where I'll go... but I do know I will go somewhere, get out of here, and make the best of what I've got.
In October I lost the one and only person I knew and could trust in this city and the relationship that was left when he moved ended completely about a month and a half ago.... and when all this happened I didn't even know how to function... and I thought everything in my life was going to fall apart... now that I look back on it... it was the BEST thing to ever happen to me. It set me free in a way no one and nothing else could ever have done. And it took a lot out of me... and I had to really do things on my own and make my own choices and desicions about what I wanted. It was the first time I had really been selfish in thinking about what was good for only ME. And it felt good because after I knew what I wanted I knew i could change my mind if I wanted to because I depended on no one. And in the end, I'm the one who is doing something with my life, and the only important things to me are my dog and my career... so if I end up with a successful career... and Bailey... that's all that matters.
Thats all I really have to say about t hat situation because frankly I could write a book on things I've learned about how people treat you, and the things you think people will never do... but everyone knows the story at this point... so its over, and thats all that matters, and I'm a better person because of it...
I don't really knwo what else to talk about because frankly most people reading these words have a myspace and so I don't know who has seen all my updates on that.... we all know LJ has received the backburner since Myspace has taken over... so I apologize LJ... its not our fault... myspace was the new kid.... we had to hang out with him for a while...
Hey there is some good news I have... I GOT A TATTOO!! I'm getting my second one today. Shh don't tell my mother. But pics are on my myspace.. and soon the new one will have pics up too. But I got it about a month ago... and it was my way of just putting Music FIRST and letting that be my reminder that music is the only thing that I can really love and the only thing that I can really count on.
Ok well what else can I tell you?? Oh yeah... I suppose I could tell you that I'm interning with Johnny Wright's Management company WEG, its here in Orlando... I am just your basic intern... and I just started so I'm really excited to see what I get out of it. (Side Note: Do we remember how I applied for an internship OVER a year ago there... and I ended up not getting it... HA what now??! haha jk... I worked the system...and I won. HOLLER!) But I've met a lot of people there and I think it will be an awesome opportunity until I graduate.
I also don't even know if people know that I have my Associates Degree in Recording Arts now... that happened in September... and right after that I started my Bachelors in Entertainment Business... and now I'm in my 5TH month. Only 4 months left.. woo hoo... So I also left school for a while and took about 6 weeks off in December and January. Bailey and I headed to NC.. and it was AWESOME to get to spend all that time with my friends and family. I literallly hadn't been in Charlotte for more than a week at a time in over a year and so it was awesome to get to relax and do NOTHING. I loved it, and I wish I could go home right now to see everyone... but don't worry kids... APRIL 14TH... i'll be back for a week of good shows!
Aside from school.. I still hang out with the same people and I love them all... I miss Sarah more than life itself... but don't worry she's in L.A. working @ Sony... so we should all be jealous.
And its funny last night Meghan and I had one of those nights where you just talk and talk and talk for what seems like days... Meghan and I have been put in somewhat identical cirumstances over the last few weeks and it was fun to just sit there and talk about them, and laugh, and also realize the ZERO potential they give our lives have. haha. We literally sat in the car from about midnight to about 3:55AM and we just talked about life and it was just one of "those" talks... maybe I'll talk more about that later... but it was a good one... kind of depressing... but it was good to have.
So ok musically speaking... (which i haven't spoken of for a while)
WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH EVERYONE??
WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
WHO HAVE YOU SEEN LIVE RECENTLY??
I have been a NUTCASE with music over the last 2 months or so... I've spent $85038498 on new music and I've enjoyed every second of it. I have also been on a show high... I've literally been to one almost every night for at least the past month or so. Its awesome...
Right now the bands stuck in my head or at least on repeat on my ipod (yep i had to buy a new one because the old one is gone forever):
-The Panic Division
-Imogen Heap
-Dropping Daylight
-October Fall
-Damone
-Emery
I literally CANNOT stop listening to these bands... and I've just sort of surrounded myself with music and music people over the last few months and I think its really starting to get good...
I even think I am going to move to Tampa after I graduate in August. I have a cool opportunity at Fueled By Ramen that I want to take up. And hell I'm only an hour away anyway... and as much as I love Sarah W. And as much as I want to be in L.A. I think i need to have a small stepping stone before i make that huge move because I know I could do it, but I really just am excited to see what I can get out the FBR experience. And I think it would just be good to move somewhere and work somewhere ON MY OWN with no roomates and no school involved. But don't worry... L.A. WILL happen... and don't you doubt that. ...I have actually been to Tampa the last few weekends to of course see Sarah M, and to go to shows.... and I'm going again this weekend. And the more I go the more I like the city.. so we'll see what comes out of this.. but I'm hoping good things.
So speaking of L.A.... Of all the years I have been talking about moving out there or the fact that my mom wants to move out there... everyone will be glad to know she sold our hosue this week.. and I'm coming home in April to help her pack everything up because KIDS SHE'S REALLY GOING TO L.A. My mom took the plunge and shes quitting her job taking everything she owns and moving to L.A. to do what shes wanted to do for fourty-something years. I'm SO excited for her.. and its so funny because we both are really going to experience this whole moving new job new career thing together and I know she'll be so much happier out there, and I just can't wait to see what shes able to do out there.
Well its 2 something in the afternoon... that means its time to get out of bed and be productive...
LIke going to verizon... because my cell phone bill was $3200 THIS MONTH!!! HAAAA. And no I didn't talk that much Its just a mistake because I have the dumbest phone ever... no one ever buy a treo.. ok?
So I think I'm going to start maybe updating this sucker more often.. because Its terrible to sit here and try and remember all of the things I've done since November?!?! And I know theres 3 million pages worth of fun and exciting things I should tell you.. but I'm sorry its all just crammed into these 20 something paragraphs.
OK well this was fun.. I'll add more later and update more often... I've got lots of pictures to show everyone... so look out for those!
ps- I got my haircut yesterday. yay.