But... why?
I guess I just don't understand.
When I am asked to play and record things, I am always MORE than happy to oblige. I get giddy, even. I love being recognized as a reliable musician capable of holding her own in the uncharted territory of a new piece and mastering it swiftly enough to make a satisfactory recording. I eat this stuff up. Hell, I hurt my wrist in the first place doing this. Maybe I'd have spent some time as a studio musician had I been a little healthier joint-wise by the time I got outta here.
Apparently I'm deranged. Of the eight people I've asked to help me in a minor, within-an-hour recording session of very short and easy pieces, two have been willing to do so without backing down, shuffling their feet or asking for payment (which I will be forking over, because I am just so tired of this and want it to be over with.)
Please understand I don't mean anything against these people, and I know that there are reasons. I just feel like I'm being an awful person, putting everyone out like this, but I don't see why it's a big deal. I hesitate to even bring it up to make arrangements. If things break down tomorrow and don't happen I'm gonna call the whole damn thing off and tell Dr. Sharmer she's out of luck, she'll have to use music I already have recorded from other things.
This is not to mention that I will be out of luck, since I don't have recordings of these pieces currently. Not that this was a goal, it was just a perk of the venture. I unfortunately got very keen on the idea of being able to take a CD home and play it and say, 'look what I wrote!' I'll need to be careful though, my temper has been very short recently, and if I let myself get carried away, I will begin to associate these failures with composition failures and I've already had so many that it's kind of a sore spot. Then where will I be?
I'm a real live wire these days.
When I am asked to play and record things, I am always MORE than happy to oblige. I get giddy, even. I love being recognized as a reliable musician capable of holding her own in the uncharted territory of a new piece and mastering it swiftly enough to make a satisfactory recording. I eat this stuff up. Hell, I hurt my wrist in the first place doing this. Maybe I'd have spent some time as a studio musician had I been a little healthier joint-wise by the time I got outta here.
Apparently I'm deranged. Of the eight people I've asked to help me in a minor, within-an-hour recording session of very short and easy pieces, two have been willing to do so without backing down, shuffling their feet or asking for payment (which I will be forking over, because I am just so tired of this and want it to be over with.)
Please understand I don't mean anything against these people, and I know that there are reasons. I just feel like I'm being an awful person, putting everyone out like this, but I don't see why it's a big deal. I hesitate to even bring it up to make arrangements. If things break down tomorrow and don't happen I'm gonna call the whole damn thing off and tell Dr. Sharmer she's out of luck, she'll have to use music I already have recorded from other things.
This is not to mention that I will be out of luck, since I don't have recordings of these pieces currently. Not that this was a goal, it was just a perk of the venture. I unfortunately got very keen on the idea of being able to take a CD home and play it and say, 'look what I wrote!' I'll need to be careful though, my temper has been very short recently, and if I let myself get carried away, I will begin to associate these failures with composition failures and I've already had so many that it's kind of a sore spot. Then where will I be?
I'm a real live wire these days.