Nov 07, 2005 00:36
The last couple days have brought to light to light some startling realizatoins, mostly, I am an alcoholic. Now, yes, this is a terrible thing, but 1) I am in control, 2), it's brought to light some very positive things. I've found a way to focus this generally negative energy back towards myself in a manner that let's me discover some new truths. So now I'm at a cross roads... is it better to explore my drunken state or to sober up and look at things with a clearer eye? But what is clear, and should I define clear while drunk or sober? They're two different worlds, which should I explore? But my employer has a strong influence in the matter, DAMN HIM!!! Hopefully this week will bring the truth to light. But what light? And hence the circular logic that is my mind