3am
Those positive moments in my days are more times than I can count, short-lived.
Met with self doubt and a sense of truly being alone.
I have become all too familiar with hearing that I "deserve the world".
When all I ask for is the unconditional love I cannot seem to find.
The small amount of optimist in me says,
"be patient, you will find what you are looking for"
While the overwhelming realist in me says,
"who are you kidding?"
I am not a man, only a scared boy.
Terrified of the world around him.
Plagued to the end,
torn limb from limb,
by his own selfish heart.
Stuck in a world like King Sisyphus,
forced onwards only to know that I will eventually be forced back to the bottom.
Forever tormented by his own grief and judgement........
Met with self doubt and a sense of truly being alone.
I have become all too familiar with hearing that I "deserve the world".
When all I ask for is the unconditional love I cannot seem to find.
The small amount of optimist in me says,
"be patient, you will find what you are looking for"
While the overwhelming realist in me says,
"who are you kidding?"
I am not a man, only a scared boy.
Terrified of the world around him.
Plagued to the end,
torn limb from limb,
by his own selfish heart.
Stuck in a world like King Sisyphus,
forced onwards only to know that I will eventually be forced back to the bottom.
Forever tormented by his own grief and judgement........