dream....

[rocksoffsocks]

I awake every morning with a heavy heart.

In the night I toss and turn with a wandering mind.

The momentary release felt was only met with an increasing pain.

But I wouldn't have traded those moments for anything.

And I wish I could relive them once more.

I miss everything about her.

It is true what they say, that you never know what you have until it's gone.

Broken and bruised.

Scared and alone.

Insecure and lost.

I've never felt more human in my life.

My heart, it longs to find the mold in which it is to fit.

But perhaps that is a foolish dream to dream.

So for now, I will gaze at the stars.

and wonder....

and yearn.....

For it is in my nightmares that I find comfort......