this is continued....
I am not acting like myself and I really don't know why anymore. What the hell am I thinking and doing? I think maybe it is because I am not where I lived for 4 years or maybe that isn't it. I am just throwing stuff out there. I have realized I really need to chill and sit back and relax. Maybe I can't have a relationship right now or maybe I can. I just need to pull a DJ Tanner with her cousin on Full House(her real brother in real life). It worked for them. Maybe I don't like proving myself to other people about stuff. This is me ranting. I am having girl probs. I found the perfect girl and now it is fuckin up. She is amazing. She is beautiful, kind, caring, likes to rock out, and has the best smile. She is a bit older(half a year) than me which is good and that is what I need. I don't know what to do now. Well wish me luck while I hope things work out. I hate writing down serious stuff in livejournal about girls. Oh well. I did it anyways.