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I went to poker night tonight. It's been a really long time since I did that. Stackhouse said he thought I'd become a monk or something.
It was the first time in a week that I wasn't working and I wasn't thinking about him constantly. And then I got back, and I signed on here, and I remembered that I couldn't tell him about it.
Fuck.
I know I'll get used to this at some point, and it won't even really bother me anymore, and maybe I'll even be able to think of him without thinking about how this feels.
I can't decide if I want that to happen or not.
I went to poker night tonight. It's been a really long time since I did that. Stackhouse said he thought I'd become a monk or something.
It was the first time in a week that I wasn't working and I wasn't thinking about him constantly. And then I got back, and I signed on here, and I remembered that I couldn't tell him about it.
Fuck.
I know I'll get used to this at some point, and it won't even really bother me anymore, and maybe I'll even be able to think of him without thinking about how this feels.
I can't decide if I want that to happen or not.