[fic] leonidaslion: Set Fire to the Thousandth Bar
[ Themed: evil!Sam ]
Title: Set Fire to the Thousandth Bar
Writer:
leonidaslion
Status of work: Complete
Characters and/or pairings: evil!Sam/Dean
Rating: NC-17
Warnings, kinks & contents:[Click to read]dub/non con
Length: 10,305
Summary: Dean doesn't remember much, but he knows who he's running from ...
Reccer's notes: This fic to my mind personifies Dean and the lengths he will go to protect the innocent, as he trades his memories one by one to save people he meets along the road until his mind is a swiss cheese of missing pieces. Leonidaslion is such a great writer, you can't help but hurdle along with Dean, feel his guilt, his sorrow his dread in his mad dash to escape his brother and the plans he has for him that Dean can no longer remember.
[Short excerpt]As Dean parks the Impala in the snow swept lot, he does his best not to think about the first nameless faces seared into his mind. They come unbidden anyway: a woman-pretty, with dark, sweeping hair-and a small boy with his hair gelled into spikes. Those two are safe, Dean thinks-safe because Dean bartered for their lives, because he traded ... fuck, he doesn’t remember what he traded anymore, which is the whole point.
A memory for a life, that’s been the deal, and Dean has made it over and over and over again until it feels like there are more sinkholes than there is solid ground left in his past. All those hollow, empty spaces hurt-they ache and burn like the memories they once held were all torn out mere moments before, rather than gradually over the course of the last six months.