[fic] sistabro: Not Myself You See
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Title: Not Myself You See
Writer: sistabro
Status of work: complete
Characters and/or pairings: Sam/Jess, Dean, Castiel
Rating: NC-17
Warnings, kinks & contents: [Click to read]Mind fucks and memory wipes, depression, emotionally abusive relationships, adultery, abduction, explicit sexual content, pregnancy and childbirth.
Length: 9286 words
Summary: He calls you Jess and has a picture of the two of you together in his pocket. Only your name is Alice and you've never seen him before in your life. (AU after 6.01 Exile on Main Street.)
Reccer's notes: Incredibly well-written AU, with a narrative that fits its main character perfectly. Subtly laid hints show us what's going on beyond curtain and which canon character she's dealing with even when she herself has no idea. A real gem.
[Short excerpt]"I thought I'd lost you forever," he says, then gently sets your right hand over the left one-hiding the rings that mark Perry's claim. But the way Sam looks at you makes you feel unbearably warm even as it sends a shiver down your spine-he may have noticed the rings, but it's obvious he doesn't give a damn. For several long seconds he doesn't touch you or say another word, making it clear that what happens next is up to you. Having a choice, a slice of control, is as heady as his touch, and you wonder if this is what if feels like to be drunk.
When Sam stands to leave, you grab your purse and hold out your hand for him to take. He lifts you from your seat like a gentleman of old and there is nothing more in the world you want right then except to go where he will lead you. For the first time in longer than you can remember, you feel like an actual person, alive and really here, living the moment instead of floating through it in a haze.