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You fill my heart with absolute poison.
I wish you would have told me you were the devil; I never would have let you come inside of me so many times.
I hope that ice cold feeling you got in your chest when you saw my face, never leaves you.
I hope it numbs your already blackened heart forever.
You are the biggest coward, I have ever met.
You are the biggest liar, I have ever met. You even lie to yourself.
You should have just told me my entire year was nothing but a bullshit joke.
Wallow in it. You'll be there for a while. You'll be okay though. Okay as you can be.
Okay as you can be with a ghost worse than Alina around.
I don't hate you. I hate that you made me feel the happiest I've ever been.
I hate even more that you made me think I made you the happiest you've ever been.
I hate that my first love is now reduced to seeming like a high school crush for the popular boy.
You've cheapened what I thought I had, and for that I will probably never forgive you.
I've been getting by on the notion that you don't exist, and now I know you don't.
The you I knew never truly exsisted. That's my fault though.
I almost..almost..let a guy come on my face the other day.
Fucking him just made me miss you more, who would have thought.
I was doing so well.
..and you actually expected me to call you?
Hope by the time I'm 24 I'll be good enough for you.
I wish you would have told me you were the devil; I never would have let you come inside of me so many times.
I hope that ice cold feeling you got in your chest when you saw my face, never leaves you.
I hope it numbs your already blackened heart forever.
You are the biggest coward, I have ever met.
You are the biggest liar, I have ever met. You even lie to yourself.
You should have just told me my entire year was nothing but a bullshit joke.
Wallow in it. You'll be there for a while. You'll be okay though. Okay as you can be.
Okay as you can be with a ghost worse than Alina around.
I don't hate you. I hate that you made me feel the happiest I've ever been.
I hate even more that you made me think I made you the happiest you've ever been.
I hate that my first love is now reduced to seeming like a high school crush for the popular boy.
You've cheapened what I thought I had, and for that I will probably never forgive you.
I've been getting by on the notion that you don't exist, and now I know you don't.
The you I knew never truly exsisted. That's my fault though.
I almost..almost..let a guy come on my face the other day.
Fucking him just made me miss you more, who would have thought.
I was doing so well.
..and you actually expected me to call you?
Hope by the time I'm 24 I'll be good enough for you.