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I have been very depressed the past couple of days. it is so bad that i don't even dare open the bottle of jagermeister i have in my freezer. i am afraid i won't stop drinking it till it is empty. sure i have had some depressing times since my divorce, but this is the worst it has been in a long time.
what happened to the guy who was always so happy go lucky????? i wish i knew where he ran off to. everytime i think things are going ok in my life reality slaps me down, and kicks me in the ass. even my normal outlet, of listening to music to cheer me up isn't working.
to all my friends that read this, i am sorry if i cause you any pain(you know who you are). but right now i really have nothing to be looking foward to in my life.
being alone for so long has just worn me out to no end. every day is the same. i want a girlfriend soooo bad, that i know i will do something to drive the person i want to be with away.
i am waaaay to much of a coward to do somthing drastic, but i am also to much of a coward right now to do anything to change me for the better. until i figure this out, i am locked in this cycle.
the worse part is i am so great at helping other with their problems, but i am afraid to get help with my own.
what happened to the guy who was always so happy go lucky????? i wish i knew where he ran off to. everytime i think things are going ok in my life reality slaps me down, and kicks me in the ass. even my normal outlet, of listening to music to cheer me up isn't working.
to all my friends that read this, i am sorry if i cause you any pain(you know who you are). but right now i really have nothing to be looking foward to in my life.
being alone for so long has just worn me out to no end. every day is the same. i want a girlfriend soooo bad, that i know i will do something to drive the person i want to be with away.
i am waaaay to much of a coward to do somthing drastic, but i am also to much of a coward right now to do anything to change me for the better. until i figure this out, i am locked in this cycle.
the worse part is i am so great at helping other with their problems, but i am afraid to get help with my own.