My sister
I found out Friday morning that my sister is terminally ill with cancer. My family has come together for this and yeah... we're all trying to be strong. All the fighting has stopped. There is this weird peace treaty that has emerged. I am also talking to my brother now. I've been spending between 8 and 10 hours at the hospital every day. I'm emotionally and physically drained.
I'm trying to make peace with a past that is so hard to let go. Every one that isn't in the situation says that this is the time to let go and live for the moment and cherish the time we have. I understand that and I am desperately trying to. But I feel cheated out of the last two years that I didn't get to spend with her because of her spitefulness. I am trying to reconcile everything that everyone has come together during these horrible times.... And I am. But it can't happen as quickly as its needed.
I'm holding on to hope. I know a miracle is so far fetch right now, but I just want something to happen that will make Pat comfortable and not in pain. I'm not saying that has to be death. My family is known for making the impossible possible. I'm not trying to be selfish and have her hold on, but I just want whatever is best to happen now.
I'm trying God... I'm trying.
I'm trying to make peace with a past that is so hard to let go. Every one that isn't in the situation says that this is the time to let go and live for the moment and cherish the time we have. I understand that and I am desperately trying to. But I feel cheated out of the last two years that I didn't get to spend with her because of her spitefulness. I am trying to reconcile everything that everyone has come together during these horrible times.... And I am. But it can't happen as quickly as its needed.
I'm holding on to hope. I know a miracle is so far fetch right now, but I just want something to happen that will make Pat comfortable and not in pain. I'm not saying that has to be death. My family is known for making the impossible possible. I'm not trying to be selfish and have her hold on, but I just want whatever is best to happen now.
I'm trying God... I'm trying.