Fanfiction: Speechless
Title:Speechless Chapter 1
Author: RockPaperShizzl
Summary: My take on the cliched plot of Edward leaving Bella and she gets turned.
Disclaimer: I'm not SMeyer, so I don't own Twilight
With a slight rustle of the leaves, and I felt his cold presence vanish into the gloom. A choked sob released from my throat as I fell to the ground, tears running down my cheeks. He was gone, he had left me. I should’ve fought back; I would’ve fought back, if he hadn’t uttered those four, simple words.
I don’t want you.
I shuttered as his voice rang with perfect clarity through my mind. A jagged hole was ripped through my chest, and I couldn’t breathe properly. I don’t know how long I was lying on the dirty forest floor, but I noticed I was shivering. Of course, it was the middle of January and it was raining, but I didn’t care. My house was nearby, just down the trail, but I didn’t want to go back.
Don’t worry, human memories fade.
I scowled as his last words reverberated again. I wanted to forget those memories this instant, but I knew I wouldn’t survive without him. These memories would never fade, and he was stupid to think that they would. “Edward,” his name came out as a choked whisper. I hated myself, I hated him, and I hated the Cullens. Did they not care for me as I had for them? Did I make it that easy for them to walk out of my life? Without any goodbyes?
A clean break would be better for you.
The edges of my palm’s cold scar flared in pain as his words sparked the memories from last spring break. A clean break had caused me so much pain before, but that was only a result of a few broken bones. I had Alice to help me live, to help me continue everyday tasks without feeling like a nuisance. But who did I have now? Charlie wouldn’t understand, and I couldn’t bring him the pain of watching me. My brunette hair stuck to my face, the rain mixing with my tears, stinging my swollen, red eyes. I cried out again as his voice kept taunting me.
Take care of yourself.
I scoffed at that silly remark. Why would he care what happened to me? He had led me on for six months; six long, unbelievable months. If he had only explained to me that he didn’t feel the same. I would’ve understood. We didn’t even need to be friends. Instead, he included his family with my torture. But what could I expect? He liked my blood more than me; he was just toying with his food. No! I thought in agony. He must’ve felt something, because he never killed me, he left me with a chance at life. But surely it was only because Carlisle would’ve been disappointed with him if he cheated on his diet.
We’re very easily distracted.
Was that what I was; a distraction? Were they going to resume the wonderful, human-free life they had before I came to Forks, or were they going to mess with another human’s life? How did I know that their eyes weren’t just contacts? They could have just lied about their diets? I pushed that thought into the back of my mind, refusing to believe. Maybe they just enjoyed messing with people’s feelings, and leaving them broken in a forest.
We won’t bother you again.
Even though I believed they didn’t actually want me, my heart broke again at the memory of his words. They had seemed like my family. Emmett was my older, hilarious brother; Jasper the calm, understanding sibling. Alice was my quirky, ecstatic sister, while Rosalie was the person who got on my nerves, but I loved her nonetheless. Esme and Carlisle were the parents I never had; they actually took care of me, unlike Renee or Charlie. Did they never care? It had felt so real… especially Edward. Pain seized my heart, and I was yearning for Jasper to save me with his ability. Our love had seemed so real, but maybe it was just a stupid, human reaction.
My world is not for you.
These words hurt me the most. Alice has seen me becoming Edward’s equal, a vampire that could hold his attention. Was that why they stopped James from turning me? They didn’t want deal with these fake feelings for me for eternity?
The rain had ceased, yet I was shivering uncontrollably. I noticed dawn was breaking through the trees and I wiped away the last of my tears. I wouldn’t let Charlie see me like this, so I couldn’t return home. Or, at least, I couldn’t live at his house.
I stood carefully; my balance was dreadful in my current emotional state. I ran home as quickly as I could. The back door was unlocked and Charlie was snoring on the couch. I rushed up the stairs, grabbing my duffle bag and small amount of money. I didn’t care; I could use my college fund if I needed a vast amount of cash. What use was education now?
I took a final look around the house and my eyes filled with tears as I focused my gaze on Charlie’s sleeping form. He hadn’t been the world’s greatest father, most of the time I was taking care of him, but he had tried. It was hard to turn my back and leave through the front door, but somehow, I managed to do it. I swiftly jumped into my Chevy, the loud engine roared to life, probably waking my father. It didn’t matter, for I had already pulled out of the driveway. The sun rose silently behind me as I drove out of Forks for hopefully the last time in my now pitiful existence.
Chapter 2: A Deadly Combination
Author: RockPaperShizzl
Summary: My take on the cliched plot of Edward leaving Bella and she gets turned.
Disclaimer: I'm not SMeyer, so I don't own Twilight
With a slight rustle of the leaves, and I felt his cold presence vanish into the gloom. A choked sob released from my throat as I fell to the ground, tears running down my cheeks. He was gone, he had left me. I should’ve fought back; I would’ve fought back, if he hadn’t uttered those four, simple words.
I don’t want you.
I shuttered as his voice rang with perfect clarity through my mind. A jagged hole was ripped through my chest, and I couldn’t breathe properly. I don’t know how long I was lying on the dirty forest floor, but I noticed I was shivering. Of course, it was the middle of January and it was raining, but I didn’t care. My house was nearby, just down the trail, but I didn’t want to go back.
Don’t worry, human memories fade.
I scowled as his last words reverberated again. I wanted to forget those memories this instant, but I knew I wouldn’t survive without him. These memories would never fade, and he was stupid to think that they would. “Edward,” his name came out as a choked whisper. I hated myself, I hated him, and I hated the Cullens. Did they not care for me as I had for them? Did I make it that easy for them to walk out of my life? Without any goodbyes?
A clean break would be better for you.
The edges of my palm’s cold scar flared in pain as his words sparked the memories from last spring break. A clean break had caused me so much pain before, but that was only a result of a few broken bones. I had Alice to help me live, to help me continue everyday tasks without feeling like a nuisance. But who did I have now? Charlie wouldn’t understand, and I couldn’t bring him the pain of watching me. My brunette hair stuck to my face, the rain mixing with my tears, stinging my swollen, red eyes. I cried out again as his voice kept taunting me.
Take care of yourself.
I scoffed at that silly remark. Why would he care what happened to me? He had led me on for six months; six long, unbelievable months. If he had only explained to me that he didn’t feel the same. I would’ve understood. We didn’t even need to be friends. Instead, he included his family with my torture. But what could I expect? He liked my blood more than me; he was just toying with his food. No! I thought in agony. He must’ve felt something, because he never killed me, he left me with a chance at life. But surely it was only because Carlisle would’ve been disappointed with him if he cheated on his diet.
We’re very easily distracted.
Was that what I was; a distraction? Were they going to resume the wonderful, human-free life they had before I came to Forks, or were they going to mess with another human’s life? How did I know that their eyes weren’t just contacts? They could have just lied about their diets? I pushed that thought into the back of my mind, refusing to believe. Maybe they just enjoyed messing with people’s feelings, and leaving them broken in a forest.
We won’t bother you again.
Even though I believed they didn’t actually want me, my heart broke again at the memory of his words. They had seemed like my family. Emmett was my older, hilarious brother; Jasper the calm, understanding sibling. Alice was my quirky, ecstatic sister, while Rosalie was the person who got on my nerves, but I loved her nonetheless. Esme and Carlisle were the parents I never had; they actually took care of me, unlike Renee or Charlie. Did they never care? It had felt so real… especially Edward. Pain seized my heart, and I was yearning for Jasper to save me with his ability. Our love had seemed so real, but maybe it was just a stupid, human reaction.
My world is not for you.
These words hurt me the most. Alice has seen me becoming Edward’s equal, a vampire that could hold his attention. Was that why they stopped James from turning me? They didn’t want deal with these fake feelings for me for eternity?
The rain had ceased, yet I was shivering uncontrollably. I noticed dawn was breaking through the trees and I wiped away the last of my tears. I wouldn’t let Charlie see me like this, so I couldn’t return home. Or, at least, I couldn’t live at his house.
I stood carefully; my balance was dreadful in my current emotional state. I ran home as quickly as I could. The back door was unlocked and Charlie was snoring on the couch. I rushed up the stairs, grabbing my duffle bag and small amount of money. I didn’t care; I could use my college fund if I needed a vast amount of cash. What use was education now?
I took a final look around the house and my eyes filled with tears as I focused my gaze on Charlie’s sleeping form. He hadn’t been the world’s greatest father, most of the time I was taking care of him, but he had tried. It was hard to turn my back and leave through the front door, but somehow, I managed to do it. I swiftly jumped into my Chevy, the loud engine roared to life, probably waking my father. It didn’t matter, for I had already pulled out of the driveway. The sun rose silently behind me as I drove out of Forks for hopefully the last time in my now pitiful existence.
Chapter 2: A Deadly Combination