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Jaws clenched I examine my desolate heart and amongst everything else all I see is the absence of you. I repeat over and over “this can’t last much longer” all the time hoping with all that’s left of me that people will start to realize the truth of this whole situation. It can’t all be my fault! It has become so bad that the “good times” seem just a space between the pain. Back against the wall I glare ahead with hopeful eyes because it’s all I know to do. I try to ignore the fact that no matter how long I look forward, I keep falling back, and even when I try to focus on the “good” I am constantly being suffocated with the realization that there isn’t any good left of us to focus on. Nonetheless, I continue fighting for us, and for what we were but I battle alone in the midst of complete chaos. Asking myself continuously ”will this ever end?” So don’t be alarmed if I fail sometimes. Dear, my biggest fear is that all of my perseverance will be in vain, and it is all I can do to stay sane fighting when all that surrounds me screams defeated!
I wont give up, because with all that I am and the only way I know how I will love you forever the way I do right now. I will fight as long as I believe in what I am fighting for, better said, I won’t be leaving soon! I Love you
“I keep on driving
So we can talk for a while
I know I could drive all night
Just to stay here with you!
At the end of the night we’ll embrace
And stare at the star filled sky
Oh, would it be all right
If we didn’t say goodbye this time?
I’ll wait and wonder
When our next time will be
I’ll see you next week…hopefully
I wish it were sooner!
At the end of my trip we’ll embrace
And stare at the star filled night
Oh, would it be all right
If we didn’t say goodbye this time?
I’ll be all right
Have no worries
I’m just a bit over anxious
Maybe a little impatient!
At the end of the night next time,
After we look towards the star filled sky
Can we escape to a far away land?
We will forever remain living as one,
Walking hand in hand!"
~a farewell to arms
I love you