THIS IS FOR YOU
It's hard to deal with it when someone turns the tables on you,
and makes you feel exactly how you have made them feel for ages.
I'm sorry that I haven't trusted you like I should have.
Love and relationships are about trust,
and you always preached that to me.
You failed only once to break my trust.
Well, only once in a major way.
The shock of you breaking my trust really threw me off, David.
It really, really fucked me up.
I didn't know if I could ever trust you again,
and I started looking for something better.
Stupid dates that lasted an hour,
and drunken kisses and cuddling and all that bullshit,
I was always led back to you.
I looked to you for comfort, and I looked to you for guidance.
But I never looked to you for a return to our relationship.
Not until it was too late.
I'm sorry I betrayed you by giving up and leaving you to yourself.
I'm sorry if I ever hesitated a moment before telling you
I LOVE YOU.
We went through so much together,
and we made it.
Sometimes barely,
and sometimes I wanted so badly to let go.
You always held on.
Now YOU are letting go, but it's my turn to hold on.
I know all you need is time,
but its hard to sit back and watch you go through the same things I did.
Dave, you aren't going to find something that will make you happier than I do.
I know you have to figure that out on your own,
and so I will wait around until you figure that out.
You have shown me by wanting to keep talking that you haven't
COMPLETELY given up.
Time will heal your wounds and your memories of this hard time,
and it will leave you with the desire to be with me.
I have faith in that because I have faith in LOVE.
Everytime I told you that I will love you forever,
I MEANT IT.
Everytime we talked about a future together,
I EXPECTED IT.
Everytime we had a fight,
I KNEW WE'D MAKE IT THROUGH.
You are going away for a whole entire year.
When you come home each month,
I am going to be waiting for you here.
I am going to be growing up just like you,
but that doesn't mean I am going to grow out of you.
All I want right now is for you to WANT to come home to me.
While you may not want it now, I assure you that I will be here,
ALWAYS,
until you find the light inside yourself that guides you to the right path.
The right path is with me,
but YOU need to find that out for yourself, just like I did.
Don't ever forget that I will be by your side,
Don't ever forget that I am going to be loyal to you.
Don't ever forget the things we learned from each other,
and about ourselves from being together.
I love you deeply, I love you doubtlessly.
I know this is a hard time for both of us,
but my love for you guides me, and helps me TRUST
that you will make the right choices and end up with me,
ON THE RIGHT PATH.
I LOVE YOU.
Don't forget it!
and makes you feel exactly how you have made them feel for ages.
I'm sorry that I haven't trusted you like I should have.
Love and relationships are about trust,
and you always preached that to me.
You failed only once to break my trust.
Well, only once in a major way.
The shock of you breaking my trust really threw me off, David.
It really, really fucked me up.
I didn't know if I could ever trust you again,
and I started looking for something better.
Stupid dates that lasted an hour,
and drunken kisses and cuddling and all that bullshit,
I was always led back to you.
I looked to you for comfort, and I looked to you for guidance.
But I never looked to you for a return to our relationship.
Not until it was too late.
I'm sorry I betrayed you by giving up and leaving you to yourself.
I'm sorry if I ever hesitated a moment before telling you
I LOVE YOU.
We went through so much together,
and we made it.
Sometimes barely,
and sometimes I wanted so badly to let go.
You always held on.
Now YOU are letting go, but it's my turn to hold on.
I know all you need is time,
but its hard to sit back and watch you go through the same things I did.
Dave, you aren't going to find something that will make you happier than I do.
I know you have to figure that out on your own,
and so I will wait around until you figure that out.
You have shown me by wanting to keep talking that you haven't
COMPLETELY given up.
Time will heal your wounds and your memories of this hard time,
and it will leave you with the desire to be with me.
I have faith in that because I have faith in LOVE.
Everytime I told you that I will love you forever,
I MEANT IT.
Everytime we talked about a future together,
I EXPECTED IT.
Everytime we had a fight,
I KNEW WE'D MAKE IT THROUGH.
You are going away for a whole entire year.
When you come home each month,
I am going to be waiting for you here.
I am going to be growing up just like you,
but that doesn't mean I am going to grow out of you.
All I want right now is for you to WANT to come home to me.
While you may not want it now, I assure you that I will be here,
ALWAYS,
until you find the light inside yourself that guides you to the right path.
The right path is with me,
but YOU need to find that out for yourself, just like I did.
Don't ever forget that I will be by your side,
Don't ever forget that I am going to be loyal to you.
Don't ever forget the things we learned from each other,
and about ourselves from being together.
I love you deeply, I love you doubtlessly.
I know this is a hard time for both of us,
but my love for you guides me, and helps me TRUST
that you will make the right choices and end up with me,
ON THE RIGHT PATH.
I LOVE YOU.
Don't forget it!