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Is there anybody I can move out and live with? I have to leave my dad, it's getting out of hand. He's squeezing in the most control he can before I leave the house. He's always asking what I'm doing next, when I will excercise, what time I'm getting up. I need to make my schedule and it's my business what I want to do and when I want to do it. He took away the cords to my TV last night and he said he was so angry he could barely stand to talk to me. I wish he would just leave me alone and let me learn things in my own way.
I'm going to talk to my psychology teacher about all this because he is also a therpist and he said that this is a complex situation that needs to be sorted out. He said that an appointment with him would be covered by my insurance.
This is stressing me out and my dad is hurting my feelings. I feel like I am no good and that I will never change because he already expects me to fail. Why can't he be proud of how much effort I've already put into things? I'll never be good enough for him and I think he wants me to be perfect because he's failed. He let himself go and he doesn't do anything to try to improve it. Every night is the same scenario of him sitting on the couch in front of the TV with a glass of cranberry mixed with vodka. Every morning, he doesn't get up until 1:00pm, he just gets up to use the bathroom every hour.
I'm going to talk to my psychology teacher about all this because he is also a therpist and he said that this is a complex situation that needs to be sorted out. He said that an appointment with him would be covered by my insurance.
This is stressing me out and my dad is hurting my feelings. I feel like I am no good and that I will never change because he already expects me to fail. Why can't he be proud of how much effort I've already put into things? I'll never be good enough for him and I think he wants me to be perfect because he's failed. He let himself go and he doesn't do anything to try to improve it. Every night is the same scenario of him sitting on the couch in front of the TV with a glass of cranberry mixed with vodka. Every morning, he doesn't get up until 1:00pm, he just gets up to use the bathroom every hour.