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maybe the lonliness is getting to me, maybe i'm just lying or bending the truth a bit. i bury myself in work, and when it doesn't work out i get really upset. i've been having alot of good ideas lately, it just means i'm really lonely. now that i don't feel well i can't go out tonight. i'll just wake up tommorow morning wanting to put a gun to my head. i can't have that now can i? i'll distract myself with tv. sweet sweet tv.