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so this is an update for those that do not know me anymore
a lot has been going on but this hasnt given me any incentive to post but i dont have.. someone.. to talk to at the moment so ill let it go
and maybe some will know how my life is turning out
senior year is alright.
school is school.. nothing is really all too much different but people are happier and nicer now that its towards the end of high school.. and i am hoping that those still stuck with the high school drama and trends will grow out of them and become more realistic
id like that
i have been working at a retirement home, cooking and serving
i really like it.. i love these people.. just to sit down and talk to someone that has lived that long and the stories that they have and every little bit of knowledge that they have just amazes me and i love it.
i miss my grandfather
it really hit me again last night
i want to see his new headstone but i dont because it just really hurts
what really brought me to this is that i was talking to ann and dennis last night and i had asked them something that was on my mind.
i asked "where is matt and i going this summer when school lets out.. we cant get a dorm untill august or anything."
i got a response that just really broke my heart
"well matt can stay but when you are 18, you have no more benfits and you have to go. i dont know where you are going to go.. you can ask your grandmother if you can stay there or you can find an apartment or something."
well my heart just kind of sank
theyve brought me up all through high school and insistantly told me that i was a part of this family and all of them have continuously tried to make me feel welcome and a part of them.. restrictions and all.. It was good untill this..
how could they just disown me like that.. i have been completely independant living here.. getting my death benefits.. 900 a month which pays for my part of electric, my part of food and water.. everything else that i do or have.. i bought and took care of myself.. such as my car.. car insurance, gas, clothing, extra food, cell phone, car repairs, shoes.. my computer.. everything so technically, i am independant.. just sharing space with three other people.. i never wanted to think of it like that but its what it all boils down to.
tim said that when i turn 18, he would like to move into an aprtment with me as a room mate and split it all down the middle or just take care of our part which gives me hope
ive got to get college set.. i have a big idea and i believe it is going to go through
it is 16 days untill i go to west palm beach and visit allison
i cant wait
a lot has been going on but this hasnt given me any incentive to post but i dont have.. someone.. to talk to at the moment so ill let it go
and maybe some will know how my life is turning out
senior year is alright.
school is school.. nothing is really all too much different but people are happier and nicer now that its towards the end of high school.. and i am hoping that those still stuck with the high school drama and trends will grow out of them and become more realistic
id like that
i have been working at a retirement home, cooking and serving
i really like it.. i love these people.. just to sit down and talk to someone that has lived that long and the stories that they have and every little bit of knowledge that they have just amazes me and i love it.
i miss my grandfather
it really hit me again last night
i want to see his new headstone but i dont because it just really hurts
what really brought me to this is that i was talking to ann and dennis last night and i had asked them something that was on my mind.
i asked "where is matt and i going this summer when school lets out.. we cant get a dorm untill august or anything."
i got a response that just really broke my heart
"well matt can stay but when you are 18, you have no more benfits and you have to go. i dont know where you are going to go.. you can ask your grandmother if you can stay there or you can find an apartment or something."
well my heart just kind of sank
theyve brought me up all through high school and insistantly told me that i was a part of this family and all of them have continuously tried to make me feel welcome and a part of them.. restrictions and all.. It was good untill this..
how could they just disown me like that.. i have been completely independant living here.. getting my death benefits.. 900 a month which pays for my part of electric, my part of food and water.. everything else that i do or have.. i bought and took care of myself.. such as my car.. car insurance, gas, clothing, extra food, cell phone, car repairs, shoes.. my computer.. everything so technically, i am independant.. just sharing space with three other people.. i never wanted to think of it like that but its what it all boils down to.
tim said that when i turn 18, he would like to move into an aprtment with me as a room mate and split it all down the middle or just take care of our part which gives me hope
ive got to get college set.. i have a big idea and i believe it is going to go through
it is 16 days untill i go to west palm beach and visit allison
i cant wait