11:11
FUCK NOT BEING ABLE TO SLEEP..fuck letting shit pile up, its not like me, im done.
i hate how every nite when i try to close my eyes n drift off im tormented by flashbacks, memories, and w/e else nostaglia brings..
i hate feeling this way..i hate being alone. i hate being torn apart from the guy im in love w/. i miss him so much, i cant take my mind off him, hes all i think about.
that guy, that JERK, the guy i loved for 8 months(and more), the guy i freakin.,.gave myself too , the guy i worked so hard to fit w/, to make everything right, to make us work..
i hate this, im cant take it, im tired of acting like everythings okay when its clearly not. oh well, i guess it doesnt even matter.