To Jenn...
Hey Jenn, if you're reading this, I want to let you know that i read your journal this morning and there's a few things i want to tell you and a few i want to ask. Where to start? Well, for one, you mentioned that I'm going to have to go back to waco in August, and i totally understand you being kinda wary about that. It won't be easy, long distance relationships never are, its just hte nature of the beast. But i know that if we build a strong enough base this summer before i leave, we'll have a better chance at dealing with it and will be able to make it work. Next, you say i deserve someone better than you. I honestly don't think i could ever find someone better than you, you have everything i've ever looked for in a girl. You don't drink, you don't smoke, you're drug free, you dig really cool music, you're beautiful and soooo sweet. There's only one thing that's missing from making you totally perfect, and that's spending time together. I know that'll come soon though, you've got your things to work out and i respect that. But i do want to let you know that once you do, you will be the most perfect girl i have ever met and i know we could be great together. And the next thing, you say i wouldn't be comfortable with your sensuality. I don't know where you got that idea, I mean, we haven't exactly gotten any opportunities to be sensual together. There have been a couple, and while i mighta seemed a little hesitant, that was only cause i'm really new to the whole sensuality department. But i'm totally comfortable with it as long as i know that its what you want and that its making you happy. Given the chance though, i would love to see your more sensual side and to even show you mine, however under-developed it may be. My hesitance also comes from the fact that i know you've been hurt in the past and the last thing i want to do is end up moving too fast and doing something you don't want. Knowing i've done anything to hurt you would absolutly kill me. And i also want to let you know that i totally don't blame you for being cautious sicne the deal with JJ, i have some of the same issues that soprout from how i've been hurt in the past too. So i totally can't be upset with you for the way you feel right now. I'm just really hoping that soon you'll let me into your life so we can begin to become closer. Ok, well, just thought i'd let you in on what i was feeling and thinking and whatnot. Hope to talk to you soon. *hug* MUAH