taking it back
things seem so amazingly dramatic when you're driving home after a really good movie. hell, things seem so dramatic no matter what you do after a wonderful film. but, this, as it turns out, is rather dramatic in and of itself. i have decided to take back my life. I'M going to be in control again. you have no idea how glorious that feels! i feel like my old self again.
for years, i haven't been able to be myself. i haven't allowed to be the wonderful, messy, weird, creative, perhaps a bit funny, spectacular person that i know i am. i haven't been allowed to have friends, haven't been able to enjoy the things I love. i can't wait to start this new portion of my life. i am so excited. a bit scared, a few butterflies, but i know i'll be okay. i am, after all, ROBIN. i love my name, and for the first time in a long while, i love myself. i am not going to let someone else control me or change me any longer. it's not going to happen. i am not going to permit it anymore. no one is allowed to force their depression on me. ever again. i don't know why anyone would ever want to change me. i am pretty awesome, if i do say so myself. i am tired of being modest. tired of standing in the shadows. i am worth more. i deserve more. i have big, GIANT dreams for myself, and i'm going to see those dreams through to fruition. there's no question that i can do great things when i put my mind to it. and rest assured, this girl is definitely going to put her mind to it this time. i'm going to make something of myself. starting this very second.
ohhhhh...does it feel great to be back!!!!!
for years, i haven't been able to be myself. i haven't allowed to be the wonderful, messy, weird, creative, perhaps a bit funny, spectacular person that i know i am. i haven't been allowed to have friends, haven't been able to enjoy the things I love. i can't wait to start this new portion of my life. i am so excited. a bit scared, a few butterflies, but i know i'll be okay. i am, after all, ROBIN. i love my name, and for the first time in a long while, i love myself. i am not going to let someone else control me or change me any longer. it's not going to happen. i am not going to permit it anymore. no one is allowed to force their depression on me. ever again. i don't know why anyone would ever want to change me. i am pretty awesome, if i do say so myself. i am tired of being modest. tired of standing in the shadows. i am worth more. i deserve more. i have big, GIANT dreams for myself, and i'm going to see those dreams through to fruition. there's no question that i can do great things when i put my mind to it. and rest assured, this girl is definitely going to put her mind to it this time. i'm going to make something of myself. starting this very second.
ohhhhh...does it feel great to be back!!!!!