What is a friend anyways?
It's funny. I used to think I had a friendship that could last a lifetime. Good times and bad, we'd see it through together. Even when distance became an issue, a few long phone calls kept us in touch. We could talk to eachother about... well, just about anything. The bad stuff being hard to talk about to others, but we could confide in eachother. The funny thing is... Now that distance isn't an issue anymore, I feel farther from this friend than ever before. What's different?? Something is pushing me away from them. A change took place somewhere and I was unaware of it. Now I'm left missing someone I've deeply cared about for as long as I've known them, and I don't know why. My only guess: My selfishness kept me from seeing something I didn't want to. A life decision I made apparently hurt this person. How much I wasn't aware of until recently, and I'm sorry. I'm not, however, saying I'd ever take it back. It has been a life experience for me that has made me that much stronger than I was before. What I'm sorry for is that I didn't realize I'd lose a friend. A friend who was there when I cried, and who was there to share the fun, music, and laughter on the better days. I wish I could've kept both the experience and the friend, but I can't take back what's happened in the past. All I can do is ask for another chance to start over, or at least an explaination of why we can't.